My Story

AmyRN · Post by **AmyRN** » Tue Aug 11, 2009 8:45 pm

It began about 7 years ago after the birth of my daughter. My ex husband and I were driving to Florida from New York when I got this overwhelming feeling of fear. I kept thinking over and over we are going to crash- I'm going to die and my daughter will never know me. I began to sweat. I became nauseated and had extreme GI distress. Problem was that I couldn't move my legs they were locked in place. So was my jaw. It was snowing out and I was sweating profusely. I couldn't breathe. My heart was pounding. I felt like I was losing control of my body- that any moment I was just going to slip away. I was hysterical. My husband finally got to a hospital- they told me I had the flu!! I finally calmed down after they medicated me for the nausea. But the next day another attack. This went on for a month- every time he went to work and I was alone with her I became so afraid something would happen to me and she would be alone. I finally went to my primary care doctor who said it was postpartum anxiety and depression. I was put on meds and they help with panic attacks but I constantly live with symptoms of anxiety. I am constantly nauseated, feel tired, feeling of unreality, and constant worry that something is wrong with me. I am at my wits end. I recently saw this infomercial and ordered the program. I am praying this works. I used to laugh all the time- now I truly laugh so little that when I do it is almost strange to me. I want to be a better wife and mother. I want to learn to enjoy life again.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Aug 12, 2009 3:36 am

ArmyRN,

Thanks for sharing your story. I think you'll find that you're not alone in here. The more I read, the more I see we all have pretty much the same story. I found out about this program from my sister who went through it after she suffered from severe postpartum anxiety and depression. It worked wonders for her! She's back to living life to the fullest. Her two girls are happy and healthy and they are constantly going and doing. Life can be and will be enjoyable for you again! Keep posting in here and let us know how you're doing!!

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Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Aug 12, 2009 3:56 am

Hi Amy,

I can certainly relate to your story. We all have one here and they all sound amazingly similar. I assume you are a nurse--I am in medicine too and my main issue is that I always think there is something wrong with me!! The unreality is very common for me too. Keep reading, posting, and doing the program and you will see there is a lot of help here!! Good luck!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Aug 12, 2009 9:12 am

I, too, am an RN. I can so relate to your story as well. Sometimes I think that those of us in the medical field are worse off, as we "know" so much. It is so hard to differentiate because of our knowledge. Yet, when we counsel patients with our same symptoms, it is so easy to pass their symptoms off as anxiety/depression. At least I find this to be true.
From one allied healthcare professional to another, good luck and have patience. We didn't get this way overnight (though it seems so), and our cure is not a quick one, unfortunately.
I have to constantly remind myself:
1. Not to ask my employers (the MD's) too many questions, and
2. Put down the Merck's! (LOL)
Keeping you and everyone suffering in thought and prayer.