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I can't do this anymore. I feel like i'm never going to actually live my life as of after 1 phone call.

Gateway will not perscribe me xanax for my panic attacks.


YEAH SO WHAT ITS ADDICTING


It helped me in the year 06 until the antidepressant kicked in i got off of xanax and was fine no problems.


NOW they won't perscribe it due to ADDICTION which some people abuse it so they say. I need it to help me like it did before until the antidepressant kicks in like i said. BECAUSE when i took an antidepressant for 3 days the 4th day i had the shakes like crazy i could not stop it and i wanted to go to the hospital. No one wants to feel that when their trying to STOP IT !!!


So now i guess getting in a car and going somewhere is out of the question. I can't control my anxiety. NO I DON'T HAVE THE PROGRAM. i am poor i have no job i stay at home with this stupid stuff taking over my life.
I can't even read books anymore since its so hard to concentrate on things.

I can't tell if its blood pressure or anxiety. But everyday my stomach has been hurting from the ulcer and my nerves are making it worse...


my body aches so badly it hurts from my legs to my arms ... tension in my neck i want to scream sometimes.. all these aches and pains


I forgot what it felt like to feel "good" all i feel is this misrable aching


I don't know what to do or where to turn i cna't stick with the program i don't have it i can't concentrate to read through it over and over anymore .. the pills are faster and i need support with them until i can function myself. But yet the doctors f*** me over again.

I am so angry i can't stop myself. I feel let down with my doctor especially who put me through all these pills to hurt my stomach from the last posts i've posted. All this stuff i've went through i feel dissapointed that all their doing is making it worse. I can't trust any doctors.

Not but one i had in 06 who actually gave me xanax until the pexeva got into my symptom to calm me down.



The only thing i can get my hands on to stop it is alcohol or smoking again. I don't want to hurt anymore.


After 1 session with a psychiotrist i asked him if i really did need to be medicated for this and he said no. That i could stop it wtih therapy. But it would take a long time. If i can't be medicated. Then how long does this stuff take.. how long do i have to live with this?
How many people on this site are medicated more than not medicated. and the ones who aren't are you still having problems??? does it never go away?

I'm sorry if mypost may upset someone but its how i feel right now and i don't know what to do but pray to god that there will be hope since i can't see it right now with all this pain, anger, and dissapointment.

xlostgirlx, I am so sorry to hear all you are going through. Have you tried another dr. to see if they will prescribe xanax? My dr. has me on it and I take a very low dose. There is no shame in taking meds to help until you are able to handle things better without them. I personally am looking forward to the day I am free from them but until then I am grateful for them. I hope you are able to find a dr. that is willing to work with you on this. Take care.

I am trying to maybe go to another doctor.. I just don't understand why they are doing this to me when i seriously have anxiety problems..

my body hurts all the time my nerves will hurt so bad that i cant get up out of bed from the aches and pains and even getting in a car makes me stress and shake it feels like my nerves are twitching and my whole body gets tight.

So i really do need to find someone who will persribe me that so i can relax for atleast once even cutting the pill in a tiny piece i feel like i don't want to move right now everything aches.

Hi lostgirl
It truly sounds to me like your muscles are tensing up in your body and this is what is causing your pain!!!

Think about it...Once our muscles get soooo tight, then, they would have to hurt!!! I also think you may have a touch of the flu..Although, I am no doctor, so I am not sure!!!

I pray that you can find you a doctor who will prescribe you either Klonopin or Xanax to help you cope with your symptoms!!!

Again, I am sooooo sorry!!! I wished that I had all of the answers, but I don't!!!

I will be praying for you!!! God bless you lostgirl!!!

Hi lostgirl,
I was in the exact same position you are in a month ago. My shrink will not give me anything like xanex or even lunesta. I went to my GP and explained how bad my anxiety was and he gave me klonopin in a very low dose. It helps with the shakeyness but not so much with the muscle aches. If you find something that helps with that let me know. I am working my way up the zoloft ladder and it is a rough road but we can do it. Thank God we all have eachother to get through this and we are not alone.
Praying for all of us.
Melissa

Usually I just deal with my emotions because I am afraid to take medication. This is actually normal. In the program one of the symptoms of anxiety is fear of medication, but last night I was so wound up from these obessive scary thoughts that I had to take a xanax.

After I took the xanax it was such a relief, although at one point I thought that I was relaxing too much, and I have this fear that if I relax too much then I could possibly lose control and go crazy, but I didn't the thought passed and I was able to let go.


Needless to say that if I ever feel that bad again it is completly worth the medication.

I have the same scary thoughts amberlee..

I get so dizzy and faint, that I am afraid to take the xanax, cause i am afraid I will slip into a coma.
I have however overcome my phobia of going places and driving. so, baby steps . God bless everyone on here. Hope you have a feel great day

Hi,

I do agree with some of the other posters on here, that if xanax works for you, that you should look at switching to a doctor that will prescribe it. At the same time, I want to share a little of my story to let you know why there is concern over xanax, and to let you know that it's not that your doctor thinks you have an intent to misuse it. This is long, and if you don't feel it will be worth your time to read, I understand if you ignore it.

About 14 years ago, I took xanax and paxil. The xanax made me not care about anything, and it was actually the paxil that caused me to have problems urinating where I had to have a catheter to urinate until it got out of my system. I stayed on a low dose of xanax, but it did make me have moments of depression and crying spells. On a very low dose, which was miniscule, I was fine. I got completely off medication after I was married and didn't have the insurance to pay for it.

Several years later, I had my son. I didn't know it at the time because you can't tell at birth but he had autism. I developed severe panic and anxiety, and was afraid to take anything but xanax. At first, only an ER doctor would give me xanax one time during a severe panic attack, but the place I went to for counseling wouldn't prescribe it because of addiction potential.

I too, scoffed at the notion that I would become addicted like a drug user. I moved to a new town, had a horrible panic attack where I went to the ER, and I asked to have xanax when the prescribing physician was going to give me something else. My husband and I thought xanax was the answer. We thought it would help me get other meds in me to make me feel better. The ER doc gave me a warning that I only wish I could have headed. Before I left he said, "Get your focus off the xanax." I wish I would have listened.

I went to a doctor in this new town that easily prescribed me xanax although she also wanted me on Celexa, but I was afraid from the catheter incident with paxil. I took xanax situationally, and it seemed especially useful during an f-4 tornado in my new town. It was a very small dose as well. However, looking back, I can now see that even on a small dose used during the tornado, I had a sort of withdrawal reaction that I could feel when it left my body afterward.

Well, after the tornado, and my son finally being diagnosed with severe autism and losing the ability to talk, I started to take the xanax more frequently, but no where near as much as it was prescribed for. It was a baby dose, but for some reason, my body just reacted strongly to it. Maybe it was the new hormones from undergoing pregnancy and breast feeding that made me more sensitive this time around. I'll never know, but I do unfortunately understand the xanax addiction potential. For several months, the only time I had a moment of peace was when I was given the initial dose of xanax. As soon as it left my body or the strong initial dose wore off, I developed a burning sensation, my blood pressure shot up, my heart beat escaleated, I went diarrhea on myself, had jelly legs beyond jelly legs, got dehydrated no matter how much I drank water. It was all very bizarre, and no one would tell me what was happening to me. The consensus was that it was just my anxiety, and that I needed more xanax. Everything came to a head when I went to the ER again, and a different doctor gave me a higher dose of xanax. At first, I felt wonderful and like I could finally sleep forever. I went home, and as I was going to sleep, but I suddenly shot out of the sleep and had auditory hallucinations. I had a hypertensive reaction to xanax. It was making my anxiety and body symptoms worse, and yet I was being told that it was all me. It was horrible. Despite being told otherwise, and although I don't advise it, I got off cold turkey, and can clearly see that the xanax caused that horrible period of my life where I almost took my life thinking it was all me and I had no way out. I suffered from flashbacks for years after wards. Now, the medical community easily validates my experience, and no one in their right mind would prescribe me xanax.

So, I just want you to know that addiction to xanax isn't about will power or intentional misuse in many instances. It can even happen when taken correctly. I'm not telling you not to take xanax if it helps you, but understand why your doctor is reluctant to prescribe it to you, and know that it has nothing to do with you personally by thinking that you will purposefully abuse it.

Take care,
luvpiggy

Hi Everyone:
I guess I should share this. It might help someone. Or it might not. I don't know.

The doctors do not give me any tranquilizers or sleeping pills. No xanas, no ativan. Nothing like that.
There is a reason.
Once I was very depressed. Deep in the pits. There may have been a reason but it is besides the point now.

And Also I'd used alcohol to medicate with. For a good long while.

Doctors are aware that if anyone relied on alcohol to feel okay that they have an addictive personality. So they don't give that person those medications.

But the foremost reason that they don't give those typed meds to someone subject to depression is because those medications tend to depress.

I am so happy that I finally have reached the point where I don't need them. I guess I lived longer than my problems. LOL

No , seriously, I do sometimes have problems.

But anyway, there you are.
I doubt that will help anyone. But thought I'd put that out there.
MJ