Re: Struggling
Posted: Mon May 04, 2020 5:48 pm
I just wrote a response and it didn't post. Hopefully this one will work.
Today I have been trying to keep busy and not sit with my thoughts. I feel like I am just ignoring the problem and am trying to run away from it. I am really trying to be positive and it just feels weird to me. I guess you were right it is like learning a new language. I just feel so overwhelmed lately and frustrated. I want to get better so badly and have a life.
I guess another big thing for me is I think about the future and the big picture. My sister is getting married in a year and I freak myself out about it and it is a year away!!!!! Right now I am teriffied to be social and leave the house. I am just so scared I won't be better in a year and I won't be able to celebrate her wedding. Every time she brings it up I want to throw up. I should be excited to celebrate with my sister but instead it gives me panic attacks and like I said its a year away!!!
I got the 3rd cd now and the relaxation cd so I have the full program. I really want to stick with it this time. Every time I start the program I do it for a couple weeks and I feel like im not getting better so I stop. I guess one day at a time.
Thank you so much for responding!!!
Also, for Katie
You really did the whole program and fully recovered??!! How did you do that? Did you listen to tapes every day? Do you have any tips??! Anyways, I hope you forgive yourself and get back to where you were.
Today I have been trying to keep busy and not sit with my thoughts. I feel like I am just ignoring the problem and am trying to run away from it. I am really trying to be positive and it just feels weird to me. I guess you were right it is like learning a new language. I just feel so overwhelmed lately and frustrated. I want to get better so badly and have a life.
I guess another big thing for me is I think about the future and the big picture. My sister is getting married in a year and I freak myself out about it and it is a year away!!!!! Right now I am teriffied to be social and leave the house. I am just so scared I won't be better in a year and I won't be able to celebrate her wedding. Every time she brings it up I want to throw up. I should be excited to celebrate with my sister but instead it gives me panic attacks and like I said its a year away!!!
I got the 3rd cd now and the relaxation cd so I have the full program. I really want to stick with it this time. Every time I start the program I do it for a couple weeks and I feel like im not getting better so I stop. I guess one day at a time.
Thank you so much for responding!!!
Also, for Katie
You really did the whole program and fully recovered??!! How did you do that? Did you listen to tapes every day? Do you have any tips??! Anyways, I hope you forgive yourself and get back to where you were.