I feel like I'm falling off the wagon
Posted: Fri Jan 02, 2015 11:57 pm
It's been 7 years since I went through the program and I've done really well in that time. I was always worried about my health. I would have panic attacks, and didn't know it. I was putting a strain on my marriage. But, I got it under control.
Recently there have been several people I know diagnosed with various forms of cancer and I've allowed myself to let fear and negativity crowd into my life once again. The most difficult situation has been a very young man (teenager) that was diagnosed with Leukemia. It's been over a year since his diagnosis, he's over 100 days removed from his bone marrow transplant and is doing well. My problem is that I keep thinking, "what keeps him from going crazy, worried about it coming back." I've also allowed myself to start "finding" symptoms in myself.
It all seemed to have come to a head over the last couple days. I've had a sinus infection/cold. I went to the Dr. and was given antibiotics and prednisone (which makes me jittery). The lymph nodes under my jaw have swollen up very large and I haven't been able to get it out of my head. I know that it is a result of my infection. I knew that already, but had to go back to the Dr. just for conformation. He's not worried and told me that they could even remain swollen for weeks after the infection is gone. But, now I'm checking other areas of my body to see if lymph nodes are swollen there as well because that would confirm my fears. I guess I'm looking for some help from those that have been in similar situations. Have you ever "relapsed", so to speak? How did you regain your focus?
Thanks,
Drew
Recently there have been several people I know diagnosed with various forms of cancer and I've allowed myself to let fear and negativity crowd into my life once again. The most difficult situation has been a very young man (teenager) that was diagnosed with Leukemia. It's been over a year since his diagnosis, he's over 100 days removed from his bone marrow transplant and is doing well. My problem is that I keep thinking, "what keeps him from going crazy, worried about it coming back." I've also allowed myself to start "finding" symptoms in myself.
It all seemed to have come to a head over the last couple days. I've had a sinus infection/cold. I went to the Dr. and was given antibiotics and prednisone (which makes me jittery). The lymph nodes under my jaw have swollen up very large and I haven't been able to get it out of my head. I know that it is a result of my infection. I knew that already, but had to go back to the Dr. just for conformation. He's not worried and told me that they could even remain swollen for weeks after the infection is gone. But, now I'm checking other areas of my body to see if lymph nodes are swollen there as well because that would confirm my fears. I guess I'm looking for some help from those that have been in similar situations. Have you ever "relapsed", so to speak? How did you regain your focus?
Thanks,
Drew
