I have Anxiety and Depression!
Posted: Tue Jul 02, 2013 6:54 pm
Hello all,
I have had this anxiety for the past 5 years, and only got this program 3 years ago. I have always been someone who bottles up their emotions and thinks that I can handle everything without medications, help from this or from doctors. While my panic attacks and anxiety have always cycled from highs during 3 to 4 week periods, leading to that one big panic attack, I can get 4 to 6 months of clarity where I have no problems aside from the occasional nasty thought. I am embarrassed, but willing to admit that I have never finished this program and only got as far as the 1st 6 days of the program before believing that a simple breathing technique would be the best way to handle it. I found, however that I have developed bad habits during my fight or flight moments where I will run to the restroom or taking showers to alleviate the stress. I will admit that IBS has caused me these situations as well, but I refuse to believe that every time I have run away when overwhelmed has been for a restroom break. The main reason I am officially committed to this thing now is because I have a pending job with the Washington State Police department as well as a baby (November 3rd!) on the way. With all of this happening, the pressure to become the breadwinner for my family crushed me. I stopped living one day at a time, and became a person who lived 3 to 5 months ahead of where I was. Why? I overanalyzed everything. If I didn't, I felt I would lose control of my situation. Depression has set in, with the feeling to cry hitting me a lot, but I recognize my issues and am ready to attack this thing head on. I am on the chat all the time with my tablet so please feel free to talk with me and we can get through this together.
Terrance Rosales
I have had this anxiety for the past 5 years, and only got this program 3 years ago. I have always been someone who bottles up their emotions and thinks that I can handle everything without medications, help from this or from doctors. While my panic attacks and anxiety have always cycled from highs during 3 to 4 week periods, leading to that one big panic attack, I can get 4 to 6 months of clarity where I have no problems aside from the occasional nasty thought. I am embarrassed, but willing to admit that I have never finished this program and only got as far as the 1st 6 days of the program before believing that a simple breathing technique would be the best way to handle it. I found, however that I have developed bad habits during my fight or flight moments where I will run to the restroom or taking showers to alleviate the stress. I will admit that IBS has caused me these situations as well, but I refuse to believe that every time I have run away when overwhelmed has been for a restroom break. The main reason I am officially committed to this thing now is because I have a pending job with the Washington State Police department as well as a baby (November 3rd!) on the way. With all of this happening, the pressure to become the breadwinner for my family crushed me. I stopped living one day at a time, and became a person who lived 3 to 5 months ahead of where I was. Why? I overanalyzed everything. If I didn't, I felt I would lose control of my situation. Depression has set in, with the feeling to cry hitting me a lot, but I recognize my issues and am ready to attack this thing head on. I am on the chat all the time with my tablet so please feel free to talk with me and we can get through this together.
Terrance Rosales