Stress Center Peer Support

I am currently listening to session 4 in the program. I have thought for a long time that my job could be causing a lot of my anxiety, mainly because i clean houses for a living. I guess it has always been a way for me to "please" people, and ofcourse any criticism i have recieved I beat myself up over and over again. I know one of the things lucinda mentioned in the beginning is to wait before making any changes, so I am not sure what to do. Also, since i have been doing this for 10 plus years, it is very hard to find another job, I guess companies are hesitant to hire a "cleaning lady", even though i have an associates degree in business administration. Also, i might add, that this was not one of my "expectations" when i started doing this. I started in college just for extra money, when i graduated i figured why not turn it into a business. I really thought that it would either be temporary or i would have a larger company and not be the only one doing the work. I have also had trouble finding a helper because i feel like noone can do as good a job as i do. uggghhh, any thoughts?????

Hey it's me again! Definately don't make any changes before finishing the program! You will find out how you truely feel once you get in touch with your true self. I made a bad decision based out of fear and have regetted it dearly! I worked at an outpatient Physical Therapy facility 15 minutes from home with some of the greatest people you will ever meet. I truely loved my job, co workers, boss, and even became good friends with some of my patients. I left my job about 4 months or so after having panic attacks again this second time around because I was so scared of my body sensations throughout the day it was just too difficult to handle! I literally scared myself with panic attacks 24/7! My mom had a stroke I should also mention it was the first time any family member has had any true health problems and that stressed me even more as I went to the ICU unit every day after work about 1 hr away from home stayed there most the evening went home then back to work the next day. I did this on top of busy days at work while mom was in the hospital then nursing home for a little over a month. It definately added stress, but it was my mom what else to do! Anyways, back on the leaving my job topic I left 9 months ago and have been regretting it ever since! I have not been able to find a permanant position up until now so I seriously have been struggling to pay bills and just get through with neccessaties. I have been doing PRN work which is they only call when needed at a couple facilities and let's just say that's hardly ever:) I even went to work at the holiday inn for 7.70 hr. That's hard to adjust to when I was used to making good money. I start a new job with a little drive (35 minutes) away from home monday, very
scared and nervous! You should not make any decisions until finishing the program in my opinion once you get to know yourself better and never make any decisions based on fear! Watch your perfectionism tendecies also it just adds pressure as you stated you feel no one can do as good of job as you allow yourself to be a little less than perfect at times! People like us are perfectionist and it adds pressure! Hope this helped a little!

Thanks for the reply, and yes i think i should stick it out, I have been able to do some things that made me feel better even before the program with the help of a therapist i was seeing. I actually fired a customer, i just couldn't seem to please this woman!! So I gave her half of her money back and told her i couldn't help her anymore. Man did that make me feel like a brick was lifted off my chest. So I guess i just need to work on saying no, and realizing just how much i can do, or how little i can do. I tend to over schedule myself just so i don't have disappoint anyone.
Didn't you say you had trouble driving? I don't know how you made it through the time with your mom, I would have been a crazy person, prob wouldn't leave the house, I constantly think what if something were to happen and i didn't have my mom around to help me. Sounds like the new job may be a good thing, i know that drive will be long, thats about how long my drive usually is, maybe longer because i have to take a different route to avoid a bridge i don't like. Thanks again!!

Trust me I can make a half hour drive into an hour drive by avoiding roads! ha!

Me too!!!! And it only makes your ride in the car longer and more miserable!!!