Making myself Crazy
Posted: Thu Dec 27, 2012 12:39 pm
I am new to this. I am on session 3. I have a very normal life. I graduated with my BS degree this past Sat. I now have a degree in Psych and a degree in Nursing( RN). I have battled anxiety and depression since I was in my teens. I was on lexapro for depression for about 2.5 years and it worked wonders. I have been off all medication for over 4 years. When I attempted to go back on medication because the anxiety and depression became unbearable in my last semester of college, my life took a down hill spiral. I had a terrible reaction to generic Lexapro : panic attacks and increased depression, was then put on Ativan which increased the depression. Zoloft: made me delusional and so paniced I couldnt leave the house. I was then given Xanax: depression, Kolonopin: suicidal idiations and aggitation. I am currently on NO medications.. .although my doctor wants me to attempt Name brand Lexapro and Visteril. I am TERRIFIED!!!!! The depression has subsided.. only after being admitted into an Inpatient psych facility for the first time ever ( I am 32) and attempting to take Neurotin for two days.. .and having convulsions. The anxiety is generalized. I have no rhyme or reason to it. I can not relax.. the anxiety fills me and the physical symptoms are awful. I have been tested for EVERYTHING. However, now I skipped my period. I feel like I am at my wits end. Is medication always the answer? Anyone else having this experience? I feel so alone and hopeless at this point. Hoping the tapes help me!