weight gain
Posted: Tue Mar 20, 2012 8:28 pm
over the last year ive gained about 40 lbs, im at 280 right now, funny because i remember being at 245 and feeling anxious and telling myself i need to get this weight off so you can feel better. Now im 40 lbs heavier and tellng myself the same thing. ive never let myself get this high before with my weight. I feel all the effects of it. . .tired all the time, low energy, cant even tie my show without being out of breathe. and i keep telling my self just get your a@@ to the gym and do something about it , im doing this to myself but its easier said then done. i just feel like a whole diff person from what i use to be. and it sucks just not caring about your self image and having no hope to start having energy like i use to. you'd think after hving a anxiety episode that that would be enough to say ok its time to do smething about it. but i start feeling better and that motivation goes away. I had a situation saturday night, i was taking a shower before work,and i started feeling like my chest was tight an my left arm was tired, and it's happend before and i'd usually geet out of the shower and calm myself down. but this time i got real angry at myself an said i was ok and the anxious feelngs went away. Kind of gave me hope that maybe i can control this. So im going to go from there and try and figure out how to get myself feeling better, because this is no way to live .