A Christian feeling Guilty!
Posted: Sat Mar 17, 2012 6:36 pm
I want to know if there is anyone out there like Me???
I have always had anxiety/fear ...I managed them. I am a Christian and I would just pray and eventually everything would be ok until my next thing I would doubt or obsess on. I would feel if I didn't do everything like a good Christian should..well, God isn't Happy! If I disagreed with anyone...Especially a Christian...well, God IS NOT AT ALL HAPPY ABOUT THAT! So, I thought!
Well, after my Dad died in 2005...there was A LOT of family DRAMA! I thought is it was ALL my fault! I even had a family member say so...but, she just wanted her way. It was like everyone pointed their finger at me...I could NOT do anything right. If I said or did something for my Dad's side, then my Mom's side was angry and Visa Versa!
I went into ANXIETY/FEAR/DEPRESSION and PANIC ATTACKS Like NO Body's Business! Now it's been 7 years and I still march around the same mountain...and still have the SAME FEELINGS and SYMPTOMS just like it was yesterday!
I KNOW ....I KNOW...I NEED to STOP! But, keep questioning myself about the WHOLE ORDEAL! I FEEL like my head will just SPIN OFF some days!
I did the Counseling but, it did not help.
I KNOW this program is from GOD....because, I KNOW IN MY HEAD it's TRUE! But, I guess I am ADDICTED to FEELING GUILTY! I realize there is SUCH A THING AS FALSE GUILT!!! I will do good at Standing up for myself and then beat myself up OVER and OVER!
I LOVE my Mother...I try to talk to her but, she does NOT understand. My husband ...God bless him ...he doesn't understand either!
My confidence is in the toilet! I HATE that! Because, I KNOW I AM BETTER THAN THIS! I HAVE GIFTS AND TALENTS TO USE!!!
I NEED to HEAR from People who have gone through the same thing! Especially Christians!
Thank You,
Shelly
I have always had anxiety/fear ...I managed them. I am a Christian and I would just pray and eventually everything would be ok until my next thing I would doubt or obsess on. I would feel if I didn't do everything like a good Christian should..well, God isn't Happy! If I disagreed with anyone...Especially a Christian...well, God IS NOT AT ALL HAPPY ABOUT THAT! So, I thought!
Well, after my Dad died in 2005...there was A LOT of family DRAMA! I thought is it was ALL my fault! I even had a family member say so...but, she just wanted her way. It was like everyone pointed their finger at me...I could NOT do anything right. If I said or did something for my Dad's side, then my Mom's side was angry and Visa Versa!
I went into ANXIETY/FEAR/DEPRESSION and PANIC ATTACKS Like NO Body's Business! Now it's been 7 years and I still march around the same mountain...and still have the SAME FEELINGS and SYMPTOMS just like it was yesterday!
I KNOW ....I KNOW...I NEED to STOP! But, keep questioning myself about the WHOLE ORDEAL! I FEEL like my head will just SPIN OFF some days!
I did the Counseling but, it did not help.
I KNOW this program is from GOD....because, I KNOW IN MY HEAD it's TRUE! But, I guess I am ADDICTED to FEELING GUILTY! I realize there is SUCH A THING AS FALSE GUILT!!! I will do good at Standing up for myself and then beat myself up OVER and OVER!
I LOVE my Mother...I try to talk to her but, she does NOT understand. My husband ...God bless him ...he doesn't understand either!
My confidence is in the toilet! I HATE that! Because, I KNOW I AM BETTER THAN THIS! I HAVE GIFTS AND TALENTS TO USE!!!
I NEED to HEAR from People who have gone through the same thing! Especially Christians!
Thank You,
Shelly