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I'm super nervous. Today was orientations for school and I could barely think or talk or listen to my teachers! it was awful. I'm really nervous because i didn't even get to meet all of my teachers and find where their rooms were because we had to leave early cuz my sister had work. So i'm super scared i'll look stupid and get lost. i'm also really nervous because i'm a HUGE social bug and i have a lot of friends but i barely hung out or did anything with anyone but my boyfriend. My boyfriend is like another safe person of mine, besides my mom. He understands completely about my anxiety and just his presense sooths me. But i only have lunch with him and i'm scared cuz idk how i'll make it through the days without freaking out! My panic attacks have only gotten worse since last year and i'm afraid that they will just keep getting worse and worse until I can't even handle it anymore. and i'm scared my personality has changed and i dont know how i'll get my old one back! I'm really nervous and i just don't know what to do. Advice and commentary is greatly appreciated. Thanks.

That sucks. Yeah, panic attacks can really drain you.
Using the 6 steps from the program really help. I started out using them minimally and it would help, but the more I used that technique I saw better results. So it's up to you how much you want to feel better.
Also, there's a lot of good books that are just about calming and dealing with stress and panic. I'd recommend that John Gray book 'What You Feel You Can Heal'. Again, it's how much time you put into it is what you'll get out of it. Practice make perfect.
I don't mean to sound like a football coach, but this is what I believe and I hope it helps.

Thanks. Yeah i'm on day three of the first week because I am starting over again. Its hard following the 6 steps though when you've gotten used to thinking so negatively ALL THE TIME like i do. Thanks for the advice though! I greatly appreciate it and I will keep practicing my 6 steps!

"My panic attacks have only gotten worse since last year and i'm afraid that they will just keep getting worse and worse until I can't even handle it anymore. and i'm scared my personality has changed and i dont know how i'll get my old one back! I'm really nervous and i just don't know what to do."

The above are just scary thoughts that you're filling yourself with. Starting a new year of school, or coming back to work from holidays is always a little stressful and anxiety producing. But that doesn't mean you can't get through this. You need to start changing your inner dialogue. What if you slowly get use to being back to school and become more and more comfortable?" Once you start settling in to school you'll see that a.) it isn't so bad and b.) thoughts like "What if my personality has changed and I can't get the old me back" is just a scary thought to distract yourself from your current stressful situation. One day, you'll probably even laugh over that thought, been there, done that!

I was always nervous at the start of the school year and I made it all the way my schooling and University. It does get better

Sorry I can't tell if you are in high school or college? If at college they surely have a health services for when you get sick right? They usually have counseling too generally most colleges do or at least a crisis center (I think most must legally in case someone feels suicidal I think). I went to a major university that had a hospital and you could get free counseling with the fees through college tuition. If high school, doesn't a school counselor offer advice on that too? It's confidential and perhaps helpful at this stage. No one would know and it could help.

Seek out a group that meets in your area, most cities have one for people with anxiety. Google that and you should find something I hope. I know what that was like, especially in college, I would sit by the door in case I had to run out and use the bathroom. My stomach was always super active. Try to picture a safe place and go there when you feel especially anxious. no one can tell what you are thinking, but the site of the relaxing place may calm your nerves. Glad you have your boyfriend, he sounds like a big help. Try to get outside counseling, but I know it's tough, so many don't have a CLUE about how to really handle someone's anxiety. Been there for a long time. Groups are good, you can talk to people who also are going through it. I went to a grief group when I lost my dog and boy it helps when you know others get it...good luck!!