Stress Center Peer Support

I'm having trouble letting them go. There are people that I haven't seen in years, and I catch myself saying things out loud, as if i'm practicing for when I see them, or trying to change an argument in the past. Some ppl that I have seen recently, I just think about jumping on them or running them over. This sounds bad, but think about what I go through. I just can't seem to get over past troubles. I was picked on all the way through school, and it messed me up pretty bad, mentally. Suicidal at age 14. Found release with drugs at age 17. It's been tough. I have been sober for over two yrs. now, but I just want to be happy. I have ocd, and depression/anxiety. It's rough. I just want some suggestions on how to live a happier life, and get over the ones whom I have been hurt by. Seems as if most ppl move on fairly easy, but I have all these memories in my head, and sometimes I think i'm over them. But then sometimes I get so upset. I've tried to wish them well. I've wrote them on paper, and threw it in the trash. Somehow, though, I am still angry. How do I get over being the victim?

Anyone??

hello, brandon - my name is mj and this is my first experience doing this - well, i fell your pain thru' your note here - listen, i don't know if you believe in God, but i find that putting God first is step one! - pray daily for strength and forgiveness - don't hold grudges and don't blame people for where you are now, even if they clearly have offended you in so many ways - forgive them for their destructive and foolish behaviors ! - you know better - you know how words and actions can clearly injure and hurt people's hearts and souls! - you put your chin up , brandon - smile be happy, 'cause it's a new day - a new opportunity to make this world a better place, and it start right here with you! - remember, it is only thru' forgiveness that we each can find peace - baby steps, brandon - stay positive, be kind to yourself, and move forward with all positive thoughts and actions ! you can do it ! mj