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Posted: Wed Oct 27, 2010 11:28 am
by Jenova
I need some advice..
I live with my dad, 2 brothers and my mom right now.. Everyone has a car and drives.. Except my mom..

Everyone in the house knows im kinda messed up right now with Anxiety and driving fears yet they get on my arse (butt) telling me to go to the bank for them and stop here n get this while im out and go to the store and get me cigarettes and all this Bull Shlt that i dont want to do!

They know im trying to get over this yet if i say i dont want to they pitch a fit and everyone gets on me sayin i never do anything!

They dont do it because there trying to help they get mad because if i dont do it then they have to go do it!

And im not trying to get out of it by using Anxiety as an excuse Its just the simple fact that I DONT WANT TO RUN YOUR ERRANDS!!!

It makes my driving and my progress i make that much more stressful when im doing this and Really dont want to!

What can i do?

Should i be stern n stand my ground and say "do it yourself and No i aint going?"

Or should i just do this things i dont want to do n get them over with..

i tried using it as a form of recovery but it doesnt help when your forced to do these things when trying to take things at your own pace....

Posted: Wed Oct 27, 2010 11:40 am
by Jenova
its like asking me to run when i havent learned to walk yet...

I shouldnt be doing things i really dont want to be doing it just adds stress and is what got me to this point in the first place...

i did go to the bank for my dad but i didnt go to the store for tomato sauce or cigarettes..

and i used what i learned here about controlling anxiety an didnt have a panic attack but started to feel small synthems of it wanting to come out..

i dunno.. it just feels better to type it out than to hold it in i guess.. that was another one of my problems that gave me anxiety was holding things in all the time..