Posted: Thu Mar 04, 2010 2:30 am
I would appreciat if anyone has any ideas on this. I since I was diagnosed with bipolar in 87 and in 93 with ocd. I am 51, i have managed to keep working but I finally decided to file a claim for disability. I feel I can't work at all anymore. Here's the problem. My wife had a heart attack when she found out I filed for social security disability. She feels that her chance at having stuff is now ended and there is no hope. I was feeling good about it untill she found out about it. Now I don't even feel good about early retirement. I feel like crap which I thought it would be better that what I am making now which is nothing at all. When I go to try to get work my words say "I want the job but my face says "I don't want it. Now I have been trying to overcome some bad habits and I am doing good. Maybe she's right. Maybe I am cashing in too early. I have panic attacks often. But I am learning to control them. It's actually going good while I am at home most of the time ("untill this last go around"). Not to change the subject but...I read some of the problems that some are writing about, I don't know why but I feel very special connection to some of you who are struggling.