Posted: Thu Jul 22, 2010 8:16 am
I'm 23 years old and have had bouts of depression since I was 10. I recently just had another anxiety relaspe. It usually happens every 4-5 years. I've been on medication for them for 5 years. My doctor thought I was becoming to dependant on them so we just decided to stop taking them all together. Now I'm back on them.
I've always been an emotionally tense and sad person. Always found comfort in being alone and isolating myself. Even as a child. My mother use to drink and I never thought it was a problem. She would be quite moody all the time and never seem to want me around, so everyday I found comfort in being in my room and watching tv which is now my daily ritual since being fired from my job. Didn't have many friends to hang with, even now. Then all of sudden I would start crying, getting chest and throat pains, thinking thoughts like hurting my mom or others that I love and care for. It has been the number one obsessive thought during my anxiety relaspes. But now I'm about to make a life altering decesion and I don't know what to do. I feel helpless and hopeless.
I've always been an emotionally tense and sad person. Always found comfort in being alone and isolating myself. Even as a child. My mother use to drink and I never thought it was a problem. She would be quite moody all the time and never seem to want me around, so everyday I found comfort in being in my room and watching tv which is now my daily ritual since being fired from my job. Didn't have many friends to hang with, even now. Then all of sudden I would start crying, getting chest and throat pains, thinking thoughts like hurting my mom or others that I love and care for. It has been the number one obsessive thought during my anxiety relaspes. But now I'm about to make a life altering decesion and I don't know what to do. I feel helpless and hopeless.