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Hi there! I haven't posted in a while, but need some encouragement!

I found out that I have Adjustment Disorder which now explains why I don't always have anxiety or panic..it just comes and goes in various situations. I guess basically it means I can't handle change!LOL

I was not so bad until I had to go to the ER Sat morning and found out I have diverticulitous....I'm on some NASTY antibiotics that make me feel crappier than the illness itself. Strike one.

On top of that I have to take them for 10 days!

And I am planning on asking my husband for a divorce soon. Nothing "horrible' happened in our marriage; we just should never have gotten married and it's been an awful year and a half. As a result of me stressing over it a lot, I keep getting colds, etc.

I am just DREADING asking him for a divorce. It's like I can see how much BETTER I will feel in the end and you'd think that incentive would ease the blow for me, but it doesn't. And I know he will be clueless that I was planning this (he thinks it's all peachy) and I feel terrible to want to do that now, at Christmas.

Anyway, HELP! I have been having horrible anxiety attacks for a few days now and can't get any respite even from my therapist at this point. I'm fine in her office, but as soon as I leave, I loose it.

Thank you!

Keeping the faith is a good thing. I assume the love is not there for you in the relationship.
If the other half is clueless then it sounds as if your carrying this all alone. Is it a divorce or maybe some couple counseling that is the fix?
It is clear that the turmoil and stress is eating you up.
I have learned that change is a constant and we need to embrace it and adapt and it can be a great thing. If were holding on to the past it can drag us into the abiss as the rest of the things around change.
Good luck with your decisions.

HI Keeping the Faith--I don't always do well with change, and I've gone through a lot in my short life of 56 years old. I feel things very deeply so I can get sad easily, but I also am pretty good at perking up depending on the circumstances.

So have you only been married for 1 1/2 years?

I can see how this would be a most distressing month for you right now. Paislee

Hang in there, When I was 27. i seperated from my ex husband. we have a child together and i had one befor i met him. but i wanted out. He was faithful to me me. but sometimes thats just not enough. i spent years feelig guilty for the seperation. we were together 6 years.Now im 41, my kids are grown, sometimes i still feel guilt over the way i handled this. i was not very kind.i was insensitive, callous, and i slept around. i hope you can find a way of doing this without feeling the way i did.