Posted: Wed Jul 28, 2010 12:31 pm
Let me start as everybody know that i did have a lot problems with my work i was harass by the supervisor because i was honest and tell what she did so she was doing everything in her power to get my live living hell the worst thing was assign to me all the time with no help and i always have a time limit and if i was late 1 min it was omg everybody know it but nobody help me and they were afraid of her to say something so after 5 years i heard thank you very much we do not need anymore your service, their explanation i was late 2 min so after i give my live away for this job i was let go,I took this very hard even that i got panics attack before the work i closed myself in 4 walls then she try to block my unemployment but thanks god somebody from work went ahead and say what she did to me and give to me. So worse in all i need to deal this everything all himself i do not have no family in us they are living in poland or australia so i need to deal with this and live. I was doing ok an then about 1 week ago i got minor heat st and even my panics disepear but about 1 week ago i got heat stroke and i almost fainted now after this i tell myself that this will happens again so i am afraid to gegt out on the sun every single day i force myself to go out and so worse i have even have problem to go to see my friends because it happens when i supposed to see him its getting better but still my hearth is racing to me but when my friend call to go out i have hot flashes and try not to go out and i am trying to calm myself down, and in monday i just found out that my mom is taking exams because she may got her cancer back after this news i am crying every single day i try to calm myself but its hard so hard is i am all by self , in the morning i am planing something but then when its time to do it i am giving up with fear that it will happend again. please somebody tell me this that this is in my head only