Stress Center Peer Support

hello everyone im new to this and have a lot of questions but my main concern is IF i get over my anxiety and panic attacks Will They Come Back at any points in the future.. months.. years.. 10 years... its a scary feeling thinking i can fix myself n be normal again and one day when im married n have kids its gonna hit me again n crash everything ive done back to the way i am now.. does this happen to people or when we get fixed does it not come back ever..

I believe we are always growing. Life is ever changing along with the world. This seems to be my concerns with life is that it doesn't stop to wait for us to get our life together, it continues. Our expectations are what can change and our way of doing things might have to change.
Unfortunately I had a rude awakening a few months back that started my first panic attack. I had some family members change things around in my home that I felt I had control of.
This hurt my feelings deeply and it started a whole new way of life for me with anxiety, that I guess I was controlling by doing a lot of gardening and activity to avoid the pain of losses. My activity sort of interfered with my youngest child, who is a young adult. He wanted to use a main room in our house as an entertainment room for his friends. They are good young adults, but he packed up all my stuff at the time and got rid of some furnishings that belonged in that room as far as I was concern. This all happened while I was on a trip.

Anyway, this opened a whole can of worms and discussion with family members. I changed from one Psychologist to a new one, since the other one seemed to find new problems and then wasn't very understanding when I cancelled an appointment. But that's another story.

Anyway, life has a way of changing the status quo and that is where we have to learn the lesson that it is teaching us. Right now, I'm here, because I have anxiety and I want to use my old working mechanisms to feel better. But I can't because my neck hurts and my thumbs are sore from working in the yard. I feel guilty if I were to go and rest because I feel that I should be doing something productive. But my mind is racing at looking at the enormity of what all needs to be done around my house and yard that I'm overwhelmed.

So I guess the first thing for me to do is go take an Advil, to help my neck and sore hands, etc. Then deal with the "weak in the knees" feeling I've been getting from taking Advil. I didn't have this problem before, but feel it has to do with either the Remeron that I'm taking or the anxiety I'm feeling. Not sure if it is a medical problem just yet. I'll check with my Dr later.

But these are some of the reasons why I'm here on this forum. Is that things have changed in my life. But I do know that CBT does help along with talk therapy, etc.

Another thing to think about is the Serenity Prayer. I've been working on that as suggested by my DRs and I have it on a candle holder. Anyway, I hope this helps. I've been through a lot of experience and I really do not like changes, but you can weather through them.