Posted: Mon Sep 01, 2008 2:24 pm
Its been since 05/06 that I went through the program. I have consistently noticed though that something internally always is wrong. Some issue in life. Ill take an issue im having and sit down and over the course of a few days or a week i'll journal and balance my thinking on it and be at a place that i can move on. And as soon as I move on, something else is wrong. For example, I have 2 step children and my husbands ex is a real source of contention in my life, she has many issues and neglects the kids in certain ways, yet the kids seemingly in an overexagerative way worship the ground she walks on. Even though time after time, she puts her boyfriends in front of her kids. So I get all angst about that from time to time, so ill work through it and then as soon as I do, then something else will be wrong, now ill start looking at my husband and Ill start questioning if I really love him and I start seeing his faults and on and on, it goes from one thing to another constantly, to the point that Ive come to realize its like an addiction, something has to be wrong. I have to be working on something, fixing something. I really dont get it. I cant just be. Has anyone else had this experience. I really would like some validation.