Posted: Mon May 11, 2009 7:48 am
I wouldn't say I'm depressed, but I just really don't know what the purpose is in my life, I mean what was I put on this earth to do exactly? I have no interests in anything, I get up, go to work, come home, watch TV, go to bed, the cycle continues day in day out without any real point or purpose. I have 2 small kids and of course I will do my best by them but that doesn't make me feel fulfilled with life. If I could sum up my feelings with one word that word would be frustration, I just don't know what I am supposed to do in life and I'm not enjoying it.
Career wise, I read in Lucinda's book life without limits something along the lines of, if you really want to know if someone enjoys there work watch them work, I watch work colleagues, they are so into there work and really enjoy it. I on the other hand hate myjob so much I am to fed up being there to even talk to anyone, I can't wait to leave in the evenings, You would think the easy answer would be to change jobs? I've already tried that and it made no difference. At school all the other kids knew exactly what they wanted to do in life, I never did and still don't.
I've only ever been good at one thing or had a passion for one thing and that was playing basketball, Boy I would practise 4-5 hours every day during the week and at weekends I'd be down at the courts all day, and I was so into it I didn't notice time, thats the only time I've ever had passion, and my practise paid off, I became captain of the high school basketball team, went on to play county level and even played on the under 18's for England. Sadly being in England its was never gonna get me anywhere so gave up at 18, I'm 28 now.
I just don't know where to turn to or what to do to give my life meaning and I reckon this frustration with life is the main cause of my bouts of anxiety.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Career wise, I read in Lucinda's book life without limits something along the lines of, if you really want to know if someone enjoys there work watch them work, I watch work colleagues, they are so into there work and really enjoy it. I on the other hand hate myjob so much I am to fed up being there to even talk to anyone, I can't wait to leave in the evenings, You would think the easy answer would be to change jobs? I've already tried that and it made no difference. At school all the other kids knew exactly what they wanted to do in life, I never did and still don't.
I've only ever been good at one thing or had a passion for one thing and that was playing basketball, Boy I would practise 4-5 hours every day during the week and at weekends I'd be down at the courts all day, and I was so into it I didn't notice time, thats the only time I've ever had passion, and my practise paid off, I became captain of the high school basketball team, went on to play county level and even played on the under 18's for England. Sadly being in England its was never gonna get me anywhere so gave up at 18, I'm 28 now.
I just don't know where to turn to or what to do to give my life meaning and I reckon this frustration with life is the main cause of my bouts of anxiety.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.