Stress Center Peer Support

So, last Sept I did this program(I did not finish it because in december we moved) and it helped a great deal with my anxiety(I quit taken anxiety meds after a yr in jan)so, although I still struggle sometimes with anxiety, I feel good that way. I however have not mastered feeling completely relaxed and I am always tense. I know that from this anxiety I have depression. I am such a stubborn person, as well as determined to be the rock in my family(doing 4million things at once) that I refuse to admit this. Actually I admit it, but the thought of going to a therapist makes me think I am a weak person. However, I dont think anyone else out there seeking help is weak, in fact, just the opposite. This is something in my head. Just last week, a good friend of mine(with no warning of depression) committed suicide. It scares me that what if I got to that point. I am so terrified of death(every day I think about death and am terrified I am going to die..this is what started my anxiety a yr and a half ago) I know I would never go there. But nobody thinks they would ever do it, otherwise there would be no such thing as suicide. My question is, being that I live in a small town, there is no therapists, can you conquer depression with no medicine. I refuse to take anti depressants, because everything gives me side effects. I am just so in a lull, sad, but only when I am alone. When I am around people I put on a show that I am so used to doing. I am miserable to my husband and to my kids, and I am so tired. Physically tired and tired of feeling like this. I just want to be in the present and sincerely smile at my kids and enjoy their sports sincerely, not because I am a robot and because that is my job as a mother. I am suppose to smile and say good job. I just want to mean it. So, can I conquer this without meds? I just dont have the drive to start this program over(even though i know I have to) because I dont think I have the drive to really do the things in the program. and I dont want to fail, because I know I will feel worse about myself.

yes you can. I quit meds last aug. did the program in May. I drove 900 miles last week and pulled a car. You will have some bad days but listen to the cd again and you will get through it.

Hey I bet if U start the program U will be stronger and will have the drive to continue with it. take care

Hi Terag

Yes you can make it without AD's BUT you MUST WANT to get over this by doing the program. You want to be better but it sounds as though you hope it will just happen without any work. Well I can tell you it won't.
I fought this battle without meds, with meds and again without meds..now. I will never go back on them because they didn't help me. They help a lot of people but I wasn't one of those people.

I fought alone for 3 months before seeing this program on tv..purely by accident. It just happened to be on. I took that as a message and picked up my phone and ordered it...no hesitation even though it was not in our budget, I wanted to be free forever from this lonely hole I was in. I have done every session repeatedly and followed all the steps and spent a lot of time reading and replying to posts to help others and myself.
I have enjoyed every minute, hour, day and week because I know that in a couple of months or so I will be a much happier person and better able to cope with lifes bumps and hills than ever before.
If You Don't Want To Get Better You Won't.
It's that simple.

There is no miracle out there...just determination and willpower. There are people here to cheer you on if you are willing to help yourself. So it's all in your hands!!

Good Luck, God Bless