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Okay, so I did order the cd set and am waiting on it, meanwhile I'm reading Panic to Power and trying to utilize some of the tips.

So in the middle of the night I had a scary dream about a murderer in the house and me needing to sneak past him. It was then that my heart was pounding a million times a minute and I started to come out of my sleep, thinking to myself "this is just a panic attack, it will pass"... my whole memory is still fuzzy on this and exactly what happened in my dream, just that I was in real danger and had to get by someone without them noticing.

I thought it was interesting that I am incorporating the suggestions on what to say to myself even when I'm half asleep. My heart did regulate shortly after a woke up.

I am so proud of you for taking the step...this is going to change your life. It will be work but you have a lot of support here and honesty that goes a long way when trying to get well.

I did not dream about killing but oddly enough I was already scared of the dark but after starting the program I would turn out the lights and feel as though someone was waiting there to stab me.....panic attack...lights on I was fine.

The advice of the people here was to leave a light on, I did and it has past.

I think when we change our lives our minds try to same the same...this old life is what it knows, so it does what it takes to keep us there.

Have you had this dream more then one time?
Remember life as you know it is about to change for the better...keep hanging on to that and things will get better. Reach out for support and believe in God to show you the way. One last thing when I decided to take this program on I think the reason it is working for me is because for the first time in my life not only was I saying I wanted to get well....I had a change of heart about how I felt about getting well.

You have done something great by getting the program.....I am excited for you and look forward to reading your posts along the way. I will be proying for you. Oh and WELCOME.

you know shifrah, its so ironic that you bring that up.

I am currently reading a book on forgiveness, entitled: "Forgive for Good". In the book, the author states that holding a "grievance" and a "grudge" not only is damaging health-wise, but can bring on these feelings of depression and anxiety because of us making up our own grievance story (or how it went down) to justify us holding a grudge against the wrongdoer or event.

anyways, one of his references is that people who have difficulty forgiving and hold grudges basically write mental tickets to people; as a police officer would to a red light runner, let's say.

then these tickets are stored in the mind, where they are played over and over again until they pile up and reach a point where they affect your mind.

well, last night, i had a dream that my wife and i were driving home from somewhere, and i was pulled over for something that i did but was not sure what it was. i assumed that it was for a traffic violation, but somehow knew that it would be expensive ($250). i kept having an impulse to escape; to get away without actually getting the ticket and not having to pay that fine.

aren't dreams interesting?

oh, and From Panic to Power is great in its own right!

i read it this past summer and i would reference it whenever i was having a hard time.

>>Have you had this dream more then one time?<<

R. Michelle, this is the first time I had a dream like this, although just a few days earlier I dreamed that the Hamas terrorists were taking my dh for 3 days for questioning. Other than that, I don't recall any scary or terrorizing dreams like that. Most of the time I don't remember much about my dreams or they are just casual types of dreams.

Paul R. I agree we often hold on to grudges and guilt for long periods of time. I've done it myself from my adolescent years. It doesn't do any good, does it? Just makes us feel worse. I know part of the recovery is letting go and moving on. That is interesting about the ticket analogy.