Posted: Thu Jun 26, 2008 4:18 am
okay so im having an anxiety attack while typing this...but for some STUPID reason I was on yahoo answer because I was looking up a dream interpretation and while I was on there,....there was a new question someone asking if they could die from a panic attack...well....of course I clicked it..duh...and all these people were saying yes etc etc...and I wanted to go through the computer and just put all these people saying these stupid things in a room with ME...and everyone else dealing with panic and anxiety and make them SEE what WE go through every FREAKIN DAY.
Im done venting about that but...I feel like venting some more about this..
My boyfriend who I live with got a new job. He is gone from 6.45 am until about 5:15 pm...Its a real good paying job so he had to take it...its reallll far away too...like 45 min. I freak myself out so bad everyday because I cant talk to him...He was the only one who I really called to calm myself down..if I ever felt doubtful I would call him..well..now I cant. I cry about it everyday. It just seemed like my life was getting in order...now this. I need some advice,...I dont know how to keep my mind busy..or what to do when or call when I freak out... Im still scared of these stupid body syptoms.. I dont know how many times you guys or my therapist...or anyone has to tell me that my heart wont explode and I wont die...ahh!
Im done venting about that but...I feel like venting some more about this..
My boyfriend who I live with got a new job. He is gone from 6.45 am until about 5:15 pm...Its a real good paying job so he had to take it...its reallll far away too...like 45 min. I freak myself out so bad everyday because I cant talk to him...He was the only one who I really called to calm myself down..if I ever felt doubtful I would call him..well..now I cant. I cry about it everyday. It just seemed like my life was getting in order...now this. I need some advice,...I dont know how to keep my mind busy..or what to do when or call when I freak out... Im still scared of these stupid body syptoms.. I dont know how many times you guys or my therapist...or anyone has to tell me that my heart wont explode and I wont die...ahh!
