Posted: Tue Feb 02, 2010 10:22 am
Posted February 01, 2010 02:52 AM
I just started session 4 a couple of days ago. i know that Luncinda Bassett, suggested to let go of expectations, and quite litteraly try to be in control of your own life. But lately since i started volunteering I've been getting paranoid about people talking about me behind my back. I feel that when it happens i think there is something wrong with me. Like i just dont belong. I am currently trying to come to the conculsion i cant live like this anymore. I just feel the mental wall i have kept up all these years is getting harder and harder to tear down. I know that i dont have control of what people think of me. I should just try and control what i can in my own life and be at peace with who i am. The problem is trying to overcome my own anxiety that i am currently facing is the delema. I am also trying to fight my old habits of people pleaseing and trying hard to fit in. I know i should not be anxious because i have no control over how people think of me. But taking the action is so much work. I sometimes want to just give up and go back to where i was, Because the fear the parnoia and the constent effet to try and have positive dialog with myself and not let these emotions control me is taking a toll on me.
I just started session 4 a couple of days ago. i know that Luncinda Bassett, suggested to let go of expectations, and quite litteraly try to be in control of your own life. But lately since i started volunteering I've been getting paranoid about people talking about me behind my back. I feel that when it happens i think there is something wrong with me. Like i just dont belong. I am currently trying to come to the conculsion i cant live like this anymore. I just feel the mental wall i have kept up all these years is getting harder and harder to tear down. I know that i dont have control of what people think of me. I should just try and control what i can in my own life and be at peace with who i am. The problem is trying to overcome my own anxiety that i am currently facing is the delema. I am also trying to fight my old habits of people pleaseing and trying hard to fit in. I know i should not be anxious because i have no control over how people think of me. But taking the action is so much work. I sometimes want to just give up and go back to where i was, Because the fear the parnoia and the constent effet to try and have positive dialog with myself and not let these emotions control me is taking a toll on me.