Stress Center Peer Support

I was feeling so anxious today and have been on session 3 for over and a week and felt not very focused and decided to listen to sessions 1 2 and 3 tapes again and i stared crying. i didn't feel sad. . nor happy. i think i realized something. . .like wow, Lucinda knows me! lol. But i started crying and felt emotional and wondering if anyone has gotten totally emotional through this program. . I have noticed already this prgram has helped me so far. . not all the way. . but i am still on session 3. i cannot wait to move on and work on this. I am excited all over again listening to the tapes.

Hi Holly,
Your experience reminds me of the first time I got a one hour massage. I cried like a little mouse. And was embarrassed. My friend, who offered it as a gift, was reassuring and said it was normal, which surprised me. I have since learned there are places in our body that store emotions. And there are triggers that release it. Sometimes the way someone will touch us or say a phrase to us brings it out. I can totally understand why you are emotional. I can't cry because of the antidepressant. next does down is not enough, this one is just a bit too much, so i can't get emotional and cry easily, but I have when I have been penny pinchng and cutting the med in half when I knew I would run out. Yeah, Lucinda knows us. She knows my mom too, even though they have never met.

watercolorsoul,
when i was on anti depressants i felt like i couldnt cry either. It was weird. I felt a little numb. . crying does make me feel better! . . thanks for the reply

I cried when I first started listening to the relaxation tape. I've done a lot of visualization and self hypnosis and for some reason the walk thru the forest triggered something in me emotionally. It doesn't happen anymore so I guess something needed to come out. Interesting about not being able to cry when on antidepressants. That happened to me years ago when I was on an antidepressant -I kept thinking - how strange that I couldn't cry. anymore.

You aren't alone in the crying department. My father passed away last June. My mother was lost without him. I visited with her daily, took her shopping, took her out to lunch, encouraged her to take walks and do things she enjoyed. I was so busy planning her schedule every day that I didn't notice she was declining until it was too late. She died of heart failure this March. I immediately went into busy mode and took care of her affairs, took care of the things that she and my father collected for fifty years. I ordered this program for someone else, who'd also recently lost a parent and was having anxiety and depression. He decided it wasn't for him. I thought, why not, and started the program myself. Two days into it, while watching the coaching DVD, I started crying. That continued for the rest of the day. And, a few days later, while reviewing the personality traits, I started crying again. I was trying to be the perfect daughter I knew they'd never had. I was guilt ridden over letting my mother die. I'd absolutely convinced myself her heart failed because I kept her so busy. And I obsessively thought about it, what if, what if, what if, all the time, day and night. That list just said to me, Here you are, now here are some tools. Fix what's broken. I don't know how anyone ever came up with a program like this that applies to so many people. It does, and I am finishing week two, and like you, I cannot wait to move on.

I believe crying is the body's way of working to reset our emotional balance. If you squeeze an uncut lemon it is hard to get the juice from it. However, if you open the lemon, it is much easier for the juice to flow. We have been like the lemon for so long. Squeezing the outside of the lemon with no place for the juice to flow. Now that we have opened up the lemon, the juice begins to flow again. it's all part of the healing and you are doing a wonderful job!

Zoe

Nice post Zoe.

I felt the need to cry yesterday but didn't and ended up having a huge anxiety attack. There have been other times where I'm having a really bad attack and once I let myself cry it goes away. Not sure why I don't let myself cry anymore, except over really dumb stuff like cheesy lifetime movies.

Holly, I cried when I put the very first DVD in, I think it was the welcome DVD! I remember thinking... finally! Someone understands! Someone has been thru this and come out the other side... I've also cried during some of the group discussions b/c some people are just so amazing and fought thru so much and are so strong- I think I was super emotional because I felt an immediate attachment to all the people involved in this program. it's such an intense thing to have in common, you know?

I wish - I haven't cried for years. I never even teared up at sad movies while I was on Effexor for 3 years, but I didn't realize that it was probably the reason until I was off of it. I at least can tear up at sad movies, books, etc., but I still haven't cried. Perhaps someday as I keep working the program.

Maybe I should get a massage.

pecos, I am very sorry to hear about your parents. I am glad the program is helping you. And good analogy with the lemon. I hardly cry either and i am not on anti depressants anymore but boy when i was i couldn't at all. i even tried making myself. . But i started crying and i felt better. . .I feel like these people understand