Stress Center Peer Support

Well. I havnt posted i quite some time.I have been doing pretty well and so i have a tendency to stay away.Anways for most of my life i have had to deal with pretty intence guilt over so many things.I truly believe when i peel every thing away I usually find that guilt is at the core.I have Anxiety and OCD(which should be called the guilt disorder).Currently i am fixated on germs.Mostly the fact that my germs that I come across will somehow get someone sick that I love or just anyone .I get an enormous wave of guilt that I am being selfish and careless and i seem to focus I everything I do so it wont happen.It is ridiculous an illogical i know but i really wonder if i am being selfish with the possibility of getting someone ill.Of course its the guilt that holds me in despair and i wish i could just say screw it and go on with my day without anxiety.I just think that someday I will be judged by God as though I did'nt make the right choices.I wish I could just say the hell with everything and just live my life wheather i get someone sick or not

LOL, ur funny I feel the same way though, I'll feel guilty if I am confident around someone and make them feel insecure so I will degrade myself so they won't feel insecure, it's so ridiculous but the truth is that people want to be around confident people so that helps me to remain in my state of self empowerment whether I intimidate someone or not I've never had a problem with germs I just obsess about being a good person and not hurting anyone's feelings even though I know I do when I get angry at someone for being a manipulative back stabber and then I don't care but i still should then later i feel sooooo guilty like god is going to punish me, It' a tuffy

Hockey..Do you think God is going to punish you because someone else gets sick? If so, then, I promise you that this is nothing but an irrational thought, and I would not give it any weight at all.

You are NOT sinning because you get sick and someone catches it...I know this for sure....

You need to let go of this guilt. You are doing this to yourself, and God has absolutely nothing to do with the way you are punishing yourself!!!

God is not an angry and distant God. He is full of love and compassion...I would like to share a video with you...Here is the site...I am sure this video will help you... Father's Love Letter

Abbette...I think the video above would also be a great video for you to watch.

So many people have the wrong impression of God. They think that God is out to get them, when in fact, God is a full of love!!!

I used to think the same way, until, I learned the truth about my Savior!!! God Bless....

Remember, God loves us more than we love our own children!!!! God is Love...Period!!!

thanks ms tbones i'm watchin it now, sorry to chat on your post hockey66 lol

Abbette...You are sooo welcome...God Bless

thank you so much.T i was raised by a strict Irish catolic mother who made me feel guilty about everything from cussing to sex to just about anything.I cant tell you how many times i was thinking i was going to hell because of the God that i learned growing up was someone who was going to get me for all my selfish acts and misdeeds and it has followed me my whole life.It was really crazy and one of the main reasons I dont follow the church now.It was all based on fear to keep me in check.I am very spirtual but dont go to church.Thank you for your kind advice

Hockey...I am sooo sorry. If you will watch that video and do as it says, then, you will get to know Jesus as your personal Savior!!!!

He is full of love and compassion!!!!

I am nothing without Him, but, through Him, I am more than a conqueror...God Bless

BTW...You may already have a personal relationship with Him, and know Him as you know someone you love dearly...That was just an extra, just in case, you didn't know Him!!!!