Posted: Mon May 05, 2008 11:37 am
First of all--and I apologize for not saying this back in January, but--I won my grievance hearing a week after I was let go, and got my job back. The only downside of this is that, because of the incident that got me in trouble in the first place, I'll have to wait six months from the time of the incident before I can be considered for any type of promotion--in other words, I'll have to wait until at least late July. Thankfully, that's not too far away. 
Lately, however, there's been a new problem in my life. See, there's this guy in my video class that I had a crush on and had started flirting with. (What's amazing about this is that he's the first guy I've ever done that with!) Last Tuesday, I asked him how he felt about it, and I admitted that I liked him. He told me that he was like that with everyone and didn't mean to lead me on, and that he already was with someone.
In the past, when something like this happened, I would have bawled my eyes out right there in front of the guy. But this time, I didn't; I held myself together and waited until class was out before I went into the bathroom and cried.
I at least give this man credit for letting me down easy--in the past, I was often pushed away and called names--and I give myself credit for not losing it.
I still want to be friends with him, and he's been really cool with me so far. But now that he knows I liked him, I'm worried he's going to push me away and try to avoid me. Also, I feel guilty because I still like him, even though he has a girlfriend, and I still think about the possibility that we might end up together one day.
Lately, however, there's been a new problem in my life. See, there's this guy in my video class that I had a crush on and had started flirting with. (What's amazing about this is that he's the first guy I've ever done that with!) Last Tuesday, I asked him how he felt about it, and I admitted that I liked him. He told me that he was like that with everyone and didn't mean to lead me on, and that he already was with someone.
In the past, when something like this happened, I would have bawled my eyes out right there in front of the guy. But this time, I didn't; I held myself together and waited until class was out before I went into the bathroom and cried.
I at least give this man credit for letting me down easy--in the past, I was often pushed away and called names--and I give myself credit for not losing it.
I still want to be friends with him, and he's been really cool with me so far. But now that he knows I liked him, I'm worried he's going to push me away and try to avoid me. Also, I feel guilty because I still like him, even though he has a girlfriend, and I still think about the possibility that we might end up together one day.