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The weekends are always bad for me. I am struggling so bad right now. The doc increased my EMSAM and said I would feel better today- still waiting. Praying for no fighting with hubby this weekend. Scared he is losing his patience with me. Mom is still here sitting with me and sick baby. Don't know what to do when she leaves tomorrow. Praying for strength and courage and sanity at this point. Thanks for listening. Bev

I'll meditate on positive thoughts for you that the EMSAM starts working soon. Is there any way Mom can stay longer? My weekends are not so good lately either. Noisy neighbors who think everyone wants to hear their obnoxious music blaring all afternoon. I'm sitting outside doing my workbook listening to all the birds singing and all of a sudden here comes the blaring music! Start clenching my jaw and can feel my shoulders tightening. Time for ear plugs I guess but then I can't hear all the birds singing.

Must be something in the air. I had been doing so well, then bam, the insomnia came back and I'm having some anticipatory anxiety lately. Mostly on the weekends. Not sure if it's because I have the extra time then or what. Trying to distract myself by working in the flowerbeds and reading. Will keep you in my prayers.

Could it be the moons? I have no idea really, but I have not checked in here in the last couple of weeks I guess as I have been feeling positive, strong, and most of all healthy.

Softball started up two weeks ago and I have been doing some drills with the FD and not being all worried about the big one. It has been really nice.

Then yesterday afternoon I started to have thoughts again, the negative what if's and I was like, OK, stop it, but, they continue.

Today I have been working on cleaning the house as we are having guests after an affair later today and I keep having the negative thoughts.

I just took a Xanax as I usually take about two a week, and this week I only took one. Maybe this is the reason?

Anyway, it is odd that so many are coping this weekend, it stinks.

I will say this, no panic attacks in the last month or so things have definitely been on the up side.

I wish I could slip a few Xanax in my neighbors drinks. Maybe it would calm them down. Now that I think about it I think I have been noticing everyone else's high anxiety now! I start thinking, "Why can't they calm down?" "Why are they so strung out all the time?" "Why can't everyone else out there get this program?" Back to the Expectation session for me.

Bev:
I answered this on another thread. I hope that you find it. LOL
Hang on!!
Thinking of you.
MJ

I too have been noticing everyone elses anxiety - I feel like the parent at my workplace lately, trying to emphathize with why my co workers are stressed and trying to get everyone to stop panicking and focus on the job.
Gets a bit tiring after a while, but interesting!

Sending good thoughts your way. You are a kind soul. God bless and help you recover. You deserve it.

Thank you all. I made it through. Baby steps and back to the tapes. We all gotta hang in there.