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I have always had like this low dose kind of depression, but sometimes it gets really bad. The last few weeks it has been really bad. I just feel so tired and out of it and sad. I was suppose to go over a friends house for the weekend but just didn't even want to. I tried to explain to him how i was feeling and he was just like you have your period. My parents just get mad when I get like this like i can really help it. I just feel so alone. I have tried to figure out what is making me so sad, if there is a trigger but I just can't find any. I just feel horrible inside. It is just so hard going through this bad stages all by myself without having anyone to really talk with. Does anyone have any adivice?

hi..sometimes i feel weird giving advice on here bc i feel bad sometimes myself...but i just want you to know ur not alone..are u on any medication? like an anti depressant? im not sayin u should be, but it might help, even if its temporary..it might help,chemically ya know? goodlcuk and once again ur not alone..

Melli

Yep, I too get it. I have done the program, no longer have panic but do have bouts of depression. Some days I just feel like ick. Nothing excites me. Life just happening and I am along for the ride. Sometimes just knowing that others experience the same feelings is helpful or at the very least assuring in that we're not alone after all.

For myself, depression seems to bother me more then anxiety or panic. I have learned how to control those. If all else failed and I couldn't...I could just pop a benzo and that would do it for me. lol Depression is a little different. It takes a while to dig yourself out of that mind set and really, that is all it really is...what we're thinking and our body producing the chemicals that create that blanket of doom that seems to hover above.

The only suggestions I can offer you are those that I remind myself of when I am in that funk. One is, to not look to others (such as parents or friends) who have not went through it to understand. It only serves to depress you more. Many times my husband has asked me WHY I am so down. I can't always find the WHY..it's more of a feeling that comes about then any actual event. I also realize, if I am honest, back track my steps...I can see where my thoughts had been prior to. I can see that I am feeling down because I have kinda wondered off the path of life. Got tired of something, too stressed about something else..so on. Negative outlook basically.

The next sugeestion would to not be afraid of the feeling. I think that is what overwhelms me most. Knowing "IT'S HERE" and wondering when it will pass. It will. What goes up, comes down. Goes around, comes around. I view it like a cold. There just temporary. I get more of them when I am run down. I believe the same to be true for depression...your soul and spirit are not being fed. Look for things that inspire and uplift you. For myself, I find a positive thought and continue to repeat it to myself everytime I think "ugh". I find something to look forward to and in the process of waiting is when life starts happening again and you can't help but to get involved. It can be a frustrating pattern at times, but the more light you bring into your life...the further away these dark episodes will be. Feel free to message me anytime you need someone to talk to. Take Care.

your soul and spirit are not being fed

Good observation, jazeppy; thanks! I needed that.

BFG