Stress Center Peer Support

I sit here just feeling sorry for myself because I am going through this hard time in my life. I feel like it is never going to end. I wonder where did I go wronge, what did I do to deserve this? I know that I am a strong person, but sometimes even the strongest get tired... right? I am tired of being alone, facing all these fears that I have in my head.. feeling like I am going crazy. My family is getting tired of "being there" for me. I remember a time when things werent so difficult for me, when I was truley happy. I feel like I am trying so hard to get back to that, knowing that I am not the same person anymore. It is so hard sitting here writing this because I feel like it is not fair.. I mean I know life is not fair and I am not trying to wine... but these feelings I have are real..I am scared and lonley...looking to fill a void that I can't even pin point. I am very excited that I am using this resorce to go into the chat rooms, and be able to leave feelings and thoughs down for you all to read. It will be a great experience in my healing process to relate to others. I look forward to getting to know you all better, and being able to help you also during my stronger moments! Thank you and God Bless you all. ~Little Mama~

I know how you feel. I can totally relate, but I just keep reminding myself that I got this way because I was not given the tools to cope, and instead I found my own way, which was protective and worked for awhile, but now it's not. And it's my responsibilty to learn new healthier coping mechanisms. I will admit that I am still stcuk on that victim phase every now and then. Have you seen that movie 50 First Dates? Well, I watched most of it and I thought, Gee, I still have my memories, but it's like each day I have to remind myself of the positive good things in my life, and remind my self that the past is over and I don't have to be afraid and that I can learn new coping mechanisms and so on and so forth. I hope this helps. Please know you are not alone and there are a ton of supportive people on these forums!