Posted: Sat Dec 27, 2008 7:24 pm
I just started the program 6 days ago and this is my first time online. I was very excited about starting the program. I feel like there is hope now. Unfortunately the excitement has made me a bit more anxious and overwhelmed. Since i've realized whats wrong with my thinking and how that has affected my life...its been a massive reality check and at times its quite scary. i already have noticed small changes in me for the better. And I see how anxiety affects other people, lots of other people. Thats scary at times too. I'm living at my friends house for the time being and thats good and bad. Good because I have a place to live and bad because everyone here has severe anxiety or is affected by anothers anxiety and then they live in fear too. I've known all my life that there was something seriously wrong with the way i think. And i've always told myself that if I could just change the way i think then my life would improve dramatically for the better. I think this program is the answer. I do not like taking medication. I hate medication. i take an anti-anxiety pill in the morning and at night. it helps a little. I DO NOT AGREE WITH DOCTORS PRESCRIBING PILL AFTER PILL AND EXPECTING THAT TO SOLVE THE PROBLEM. I've been on every anti-depressent in the world and none of them has ever worked. Much anxiety is caused by the fact that i was recently put on probation and a condition is that I mus............ WELL THAT WAS AGRAVATING!!!!!! I just changed the place where I was going to post this and it deleted 75% of what I had typed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!