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i feel ok at nite but then wen i wake up im a reck all over againe i keep thinkin im going crazy an i get depressed from it really bad iget dereailization feelings all the time an its really scary for me its like im on my way 2 the nut house an i cant stop thinkin that it affects me an my sourroundingsi just feel like im slipping an there is no way to stop it that im doom that im going to be stuck in a nut house an be all alone an every1 is guna forget about me an just say things like did u here he went crazy he will never be the same an it feels so real an scares the hell out of me dose any1 else feel like this

Hey Carlyboy,
I cant tell you how many times I have gone through this type of feelings. Those are a sure sign of anxiety and or panic attacks. I look forward to night time sleep just to not go thru that.I will be sarting the anxiety program in just a few days.I've been dealing with these issues going on 10 years. There is help and your not alone.

thank you very much pauroa58 i realy love that people can give so much up keeping advise please more replys from anyone is allways good ttyl ppl thanx carlyboy

Hello there Carlyboy:
You are not alone. There are hundreds of us!
Have you received the program yet?

Keep coming here and posting. In the meantime it will be good if you get the program and start to listen to the relaxation CD. Also begin to word the program.
You will get better!!
Many have felt just like you and they spent time working the program and now have a normal life. You can too.
I have had severe depression in my lifetime.
And have had panic attacks and extreem anxiety.
But I'm relatively calm now.
I will say a prayer for you.
Hang in there!
It gets much better.
Mary Jane
P.S. There is much hope, Carly.
People will reply and give you many tips on how you can get beyond this.

Hi. You certainly aren't alone! Are you going to work through this program? It will help you, and when you post, we will try to offer support. Kind regards, Pecos.

You know, someone once told me that if you are able to worry about 'going crazy', then that confirms you are most certainly not crazy. Even though I still doubt this at times, I have found comfort in this idea.

I don't know if this will help you, but from my experience, anxiety (and depression) takes you to a place so far beyond simple worry about life's annoyances (I'd take them in a heartbeat), it takes you to a place where you feel completely out of it (on a side note, lucinda basset called it a bewildered state...where your mind shuts down to a coping mode-i'd never heard that before - comforting to hear it defined!)

But with that, it makes you feel so unlike other people, makes you desparately want to be at ease as other people seem, to have their easy conversation and silly banter with other people, to be able to moan about Mondays and get truly excited about Fridays...makes you feel like you're carrying around a tragedy 24/7 that no one else is experiencing. It even makes you bitter, almost incredulous, to hear of the "trivial" issues people struggle with- makes me want to scream - "if you only knew!"

But I know all of this catastrophic thinking is a result of day in and day out negative thinking about myself and how cruelly I compare myself to others, who to be quite honest, don't deserve it - although that doesn't stop me...I know I have to change the way I think - I just fear I don't know how...

But you are most definitely not alone - I'm realizing more and more that these feelings of losing it are sooo common...even lucinda thought her anxiety was a precursor towards true mental illness...

Anyway, didn't expect to go on for so long, but I just felt compelled to share...

trust with me that we will get better...

thank you guys i dont know wut i would do with out u guys thanks carl

i get this feeling too. myophora: i can totally relate to where you said you get annoyed with other people when they talk about their little problems. i am always thinking to myself oh my gosh if you had to go through what i have to everyday, then you would not be talking about your stupid little problems, which prolly isnt a good attitude to have. i always find myself thinking that though.

Hey everyone,
Just dropping in quickly (I've got to get to bed!) Yes it does get a lot better! I have finished the program but I'm still working it every day because I am not "cured". Are we ever "cured"? Maybe, maybe not.
After Lesson 2 I didn't have another out of the blue panic attack again, until about a month after completing the program. I have learned to change my thinking, or go in a different direction physically. It works. It makes your mind change its thinking. That spacey, floaty feeling, and the sweating don't happen to me very much anymore but I have to stay on top of my habitual thinking patterns.

You are never alone if you are here. There is always someone who understands, and cares about you. Don't give up, never give up! We are here.

Blessings,
Jackie