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Something just occurred to me.

I posted something about this recently. . . but didn't really get it all thought through.

yesterday I was feeling better and today suddenly feeling worse again.

I traced back my thoughts and found the one thought that started my chain of negative thoughts that made me feel depressed today. It started with a simple statement on the radio about how we should try to laugh more so that our family life is less stressful.

I started thinking how I don't laugh enough and I don't have enough fun. . . which changed to how rough it must be living with me. . . which changed to why I haven't had any friends call the last few weeks . . . which changed to basically . . . .just more negative thoughts.

Here I've been praising myself for not having the anxiety/panic thoughts and feelings lately, but now I'm just doing the same sort of thing in a different way. It's just causing depressed feelings instead of anxious ones.

But, I'm thinking the fix is the same. When I start thinking that I've really been depressed for two years or whatever. . . and that I'll never be just "happy" that is just more lies I'm telling myself.

I need to learn now how to stop those thoughts the same way I learned to stop the more scary ones.

I also realize that I have been burdening my friends and family with all my problems with myself and my marriage, etc (which is doing much better now) and I start wondering if people are just avoiding me cuz I'm such a bummer!

I want to turn that around too.

Any suggestions? I want to be the old positive bubbly me again. I was thinking maybe it was hormones, but maybe it's not. . . which would be a good thing cuz I have control over some things more than others.

Faith_TX,

I don't have any real good suggestions...but, I think it's very important that you noticed your negative thought and realize what's the problem in that sense. Although I have been feeling good anxiety wise, I have noticed that since late summer I've been back at being angry at people (family, friends, etc.) and just feeling bitter and resentful! (My whole family lives near each other two and a half hours away from me and my husbands family is five hours away). So, whenever something goes wrong (our car, which is only 5 years old and paid off has been in and out of the shop and costing us soooo much money) I start blaming everyone else about why I don't have more money or this or that. Just an all around negative vibe I've been putting out there too.

Okay, so now we know and assuming you did the program, we know what part of the program to go back over and work through right? It's not easy, I know. I am soooo good at telling people what they should do and not do, but changing this behavior is going to be hard with the stress of the holiday coming too. Good luck and try not to analyze yourself...your'e a good person, now's the time to let everyone know it!

Karla

That's my thing too. I've been very negative and angry up until a few days ago. Now I'm trying to be more positive and patient.

Hopefully I can get there.