Posted: Tue Apr 22, 2008 6:31 am
I can't believe that I did it, but I did.
1. I have worried about taking/changing meds ever since my doctor finally got me on the ****tail that was working. I am scared (or at least I thought I was) to take new meds and deal with side effects. But about three weeks ago my doc put me on birth control for ovarian cysts and I didn't even think about it. I didn't realize that i had even started taking new meds until the other day. It just hadn't occurred to me, which means that it never occurred to me to be scared. Huh?
2. I went on a date...and I didn't freak out before hand. And let me tell you...I am a FREAK about dating. It has always been my biggest, insta diarhea kind of anxiety/fear. But I did it and it was fabulous. I had a really good time. And I haven't over thought it. I am also going on my second date tonight!
I haven't been on a second date in at least three years. It's like someone else took over my body and just went and lived!
When I stopped and thought about it, i got excited AND I got a little nervous at the same time. Can I keep this up? Is this feeling going to go away? But, i try to put that out of my mind and just keep moving forward.
No matter what happens from here, I am proud I got this far. This has been a really big accomplishment for me. These are two things that I NEVER thought I would be able to do, but I did it! I did it and so can you.
1. I have worried about taking/changing meds ever since my doctor finally got me on the ****tail that was working. I am scared (or at least I thought I was) to take new meds and deal with side effects. But about three weeks ago my doc put me on birth control for ovarian cysts and I didn't even think about it. I didn't realize that i had even started taking new meds until the other day. It just hadn't occurred to me, which means that it never occurred to me to be scared. Huh?
2. I went on a date...and I didn't freak out before hand. And let me tell you...I am a FREAK about dating. It has always been my biggest, insta diarhea kind of anxiety/fear. But I did it and it was fabulous. I had a really good time. And I haven't over thought it. I am also going on my second date tonight!
I haven't been on a second date in at least three years. It's like someone else took over my body and just went and lived!
When I stopped and thought about it, i got excited AND I got a little nervous at the same time. Can I keep this up? Is this feeling going to go away? But, i try to put that out of my mind and just keep moving forward.
No matter what happens from here, I am proud I got this far. This has been a really big accomplishment for me. These are two things that I NEVER thought I would be able to do, but I did it! I did it and so can you.
jealous. . . but mostly proud of your accomplishments--and encouraged 
! i'm so happy for you!