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Hi , today has been another bad day .. I get so tired of useing them words '' BAD DAY ''
but I still feel sick to stomache sad and depressed . confused ..not like myself,,and anxious and have had several severe panic attacks
since I have been up . witch has only been about 5 hours or so .
I am typing this again on my notepad its easyer for me to post beings I get advice from a few sites
they all have helped me just trying to figure out when I get panicy what I was thinking or what I was doing .
1st off my daughter came by today before she went to the laundry mat with her grandma and a few things was brought up
like her telling me I was only getting her worse if you havent read my past posts she has anxiety and seperation anxiety
and is on meds to help her also and she dose get the help she needs . I take her to the dr''s and everything and so dose her father
and I had dyed my own hair beings I cant go into a hair salon.
well needless to say my husband picked up alburn red and my hair is brown . now I have redish brown hair ,
and I have been made fun of it looking red , I guess no one is used to seeing me with red hair I dont know .
thjen my husband gets so mad at me because I have his 14 yr old niece up here she has been here for almost 2 weeks on and off she lives down the hill from us .
he said that she just gets on his nurves but she really dosent do anything that a normal 14 yr old wouldnt do , thats my opinion tho .
its nice to have her around to talk to and help get my mind off things he mad her go home today .
that upsets me also.
see what happens he said is when she gets on his nurves he gets to fighting with her and then he gets mean and yells at me
he tryes to help me out he says but dont know how with my illness .
and that just makes me worse . when I hear fighting and things .

My bad anxiety / panic attack habits
please dont lol at me when I list them

1.checking my pulse or blood pressure sometimes
2.everyday I get up I get a wet wash cloth to carry around because my hands get swetty . and its actually drying my hands out
3.( this one my husband hates he said its another thing I am useing to try to help )I use my computer chair to walk and do things around the house for a few reasond ..I get light headed and weak and I set on the towlet I just have it in there because I feel safer incase I would fall or pass out witch I never have
4.I always empy an ash tray as soon I see 1 cigg in it ..
5.I get confusessed alot so I use post its and little note pads all over reminding me about things to do and help notes to help me out like example ..your okay it will go away...
6.when I get up in the morning I go right for my drink I keep it by my bed everynight so I can take my vitimin and med
7. I preay constantly threw the day hopeing god will help my huby says it hasnt worked you praying in 12 years of this why would it now ,.,
8. i always have my clothes ready for the next day and in the bathroom incase anything would ever happen tome or family
9. I am scared of hospitals and dr's and have so many appts this month ofr my daughter my husband and I .
I could go on and on about stupid things I do but to me thats enought do any of you do any of this stuff .. and HONESTLY do you think any of it I do could be uncalled for ?
Like how I cant go anywhere because I am afraid to talk and be around ppl afraid they will say something and I get all confused and VERY tounge tied like I cant talk correct or I talk to fast
or scared to have my daughter say bad things to me she is going on 9 yrs old in less than a month .on august 1st
or afraid my husband will be so mad at me and yell or say I ACT LIKE A BABY.
I do all I can but still panicy and depressed and cant go anywhere I want to go I am so scared of what might happen or if I want to leave how can I get out when I have really no good excuse .besides I am having a panic attack and ant feeling well
BY THE WAY DO ANY OF YOU GET WORSE WHEN SOMEONE CONSTANTLY ASKED '''''ARE YOU OKAY'''
WOW that puts me in deeper with a panic attack . thinking okay they have noticed im setting here and having a panic attack what do they see me doing that I dont . for them to ask me that ?
TY all for the replys and god bless everyone of you ..
SORRY IT WAS SO LONG .
~~christna~~

christina,
as i read what you write and see the pain that you have. it makes me think back from where i used to be...the person that was suppossed to be my support. was tearing me down and making me feel worse...i used to not go anywhere or do things that i loved to do..anytime i would do something that i loved i was accussed of doing bad things..i used to go fishing and come home late with fish and was accussed of running around. did not make sense..after 30 some years of marriage and i caught her running around and she had done that for years...it ended in 2001..
the good part was the program.i started in i think in 2002 or 2003..i met and am now married to a wonderful lady..we got married in april 2005...she is my help mate and we do things together. i have been there for her and she for me..in good times and bad...we go to church and read our bible and pray each night..we still have rough times but GOD is in control. please keep praying. and if it takes a few more years of prayer to get you where you need to be then so be it..take care and know that you are in our thoughts and prayers and GOD BLESS...
oh and i forgot to tell you i used to not be able to go to the barber shop for years and alot of other things. i could wrote a book on..but little by little you can..give it a try and you will not pass out ..thanks for listening..
doninva23605@yahoo.com
i can do all things through CHRIST who strengthens me..

Hi there I willnever give up my prayer to God .. I feel so much better when I pray .. My daughter also prays daily and sometimes more than 2 or 3 times I tell her sis go ahead he is listening . and I will take how ever long it takes to get better and ask for help as long as its out there and continue on and never give up ty so much . take care and god bless

i've developed a good sense of reading people through type, and, just from the way you were typing, i have to say CALM DOWN! not in a mean, yelling way, just in a..... chill out, everything is fine way. i believe anxiety is led on by a few key triggers, and when those aren't dealt with, it can really get out of control.

1) rapid thinking. if your mind races faster than you can relax it, your in trouble. i can tell you have 36224356 different things going through your mind right now, and you can't do that to yourself. whenever you feel this, you have to chill, do a crossword puzzle, listen and sing to music, read poetry, a book, anything. once your thoughts get out of control, its rough.

2) thinking things are weird and caring. i think its weird i cook with bottled water. most use tap. but, i prefer bottled because it tastes better, and less of a chance i get e. coli. (i started after an e. coli outbreak in my town from the water treatment plant.) but, its how i think about it. if i THINK its weird, abnormal, crazy, etc, then it will eat at me. i just say "well, who cares, its water, i like bottled, big deal." just like setting up clothing. its only funky that you THINK its funky. people have quirks and things they like doing that, maybe the majority of people don't, but to obsess about it and think its weird, is not right. just, accept that you do something, for whatever reason, and be ok with doing it. who cares, right?

3) expecting the worst, and caring. worrying about messing up while you talk is, kinda irrational. people stumble on words all the time, no big deal. i just said to my fiance "hey, will you help when i try on some furniture." i meant clothes of course, i have a job interview tomorrow. my mom says "thanks, you too!" to the airport people when they say "have a nice flight." its simply a reaction, lol. they aren't flying. but the key here is, kinda the same as the previous one. its CARING about it that needs to change. not that you need to hide away and not talk, or take speech lessons, you just have to learn to NOT CARE! its hard, don't get me wrong. i used to NEVER want to slip up, or sound silly, or stutter. but, everyone does it, laugh at yourself when you do it. people don't care or think your weird. do you think 15 minutes later, anyone is even going to remember? not at all. but its all about not taking yourself too seriously. so what if you slip up and sound silly. it doesn't mean theres something wrong with you. sometimes ya just have a misfire, haha. laugh it off, it'll help.

i think if you work on those things, you'll see a great improvement all around with this stuff.

Sporadic - I couldn't have said it better. You are wise beyond your years, my friend.

Christina, I remember once I burned popcorn in the microwave at work and it smoked so bad that the whole 3rd floor of this high rise building smelled. I was mortified!!!! Fortunately, I had a friend who encouraged me to laugh it off even though the bosses wife was really mad. That changed the way I thought forever. And, by the way that was almost 20 years ago. Now, I laugh at myself all the time.

Back in February, I felt dizzy at work and fell to the floor (of course having an anxiety attack). Now when my boss stresses me out, I tell her she better be careful or I'll fall in the floor and she'll have to take me to the emergency room again. We both just laugh. The point being, I'm flawed and I have anxiety issues but I can still laugh at myself and have fun with it (even though most days it's not funny). I am who I am and I'm going to get better. If it freaks some people out, so be it.

Accept yourself as you are and take those baby steps. I have had constant anxiety for over four months now. Not the kind that will cause me to fall in the floor again, but a constant reminder that I am vulnerable. It is irritating and very frustrating, but I accept myself 100%.

Forgive yourself for your little habits. They are yours and no one here would make you feel bad about them. Love yourself and remember the positive self talk!!! I know it's not easy! But, you can do it!

I just wanted to say that I have finished session 3 and I've noticed that I have been doing a little better with dealing with anxiety. I'm trying not to take things oh so seriously and laughing more helps alot even if the situation is not all that humorous. I'm making the most of the situation. And staying positive!! Still having a problem though when I'm alone. By the way, I'm new to using the computer, so bear with me.

you all have been great and ty all for the advice it has been very usefull and will be put to great use trust me .. I have lol and I have seen that I need to stop worring so much .. my biggist problem is the feeling like im walking sideways and dizzy .. and off balance feeling other and of course my anxiety and panic but I get worked up when I feel dizzy so to say .. ty all you have been great !!! hugz and best wishes

Christina,

Remember, the off balance and dizziness is a symptom of your anxiety. I have it daily. Instead of getting worked up about it, remember it is your body feeling the pre-anxiety and start calming yourself down. Deep breathing - in through your nose and out through your mouth!!! Dizziness and the off balance feeling are my first indication that I'm starting to get stressed. If I disable it by deep breathing, I feel so much better. We are with you! God bless you!

ty Lisa that helps alot to know about the dizzyness .. I have been having a hard time with thi sthe past maybe 6 months or so .. it scared me but now feeling somewhat better. today isnt as bad as it has been I have been useing many coping skills you all have tought to me and puting them to great use ty all

Hello, im new to this.. My aunt told me about this site and that i should go on it, and talk about my sympthoms.. I see other people have off balance problems. I was just wanted to make sure that anxiety can cuase that all the time. I just got over the flu, and since them my off balance has been bad..