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well i never even think i had anxiety.i remember wen i was about 15 always worring about if something happen to my parents. i will cry and worry about it.well wen i was seventeen i got pregnant.i made a big mistake i got an abortion. i was so depress i always wanted my baby i got so depress i just obsess about getting pregnant that was all i thought about well 6months later i got pregnant i was so happy that i worry constantly about something going wrong. well i had a great pregnancy. well i guess i got postpartum depression i never delt with it i would get angry sometimes and just keep it to my self.well b4 my 19bday was my first panic attack i was felling dizy prior to that wen i would go to a store and i was scare to drive.ever since i have just not gone to the way i was i always think i have a mentall illnes and i have lots of obsessive thoughts i feel like i'm scare to go crazy i'm scare to be alone this just sucks i truly think i;m in the beginingof a mentall illness and it hurts all i do is cry worry and cry again i cry for everything. i'm so scare to leave my daughter. and be in a mentall institute. wat does this sounds like .can some one plese help me understand was going on.

My husband and I were driving aroung town one day and he was driving around all the backroads. At the time I was having a lot of anxiety issues. He figured we were just going for a nice little drive together and I started to cry. He said "What's the matter?" and I said "Please don't take me to send me away!". He said "Why on earth would I do that?!?" and I replied "Because i've been sick lately with all my anxiety and I thought you might be sick of me!".....It's not being SICK. Although it is a mental illness it's not like being schizophrenic or dillusional - anxiety and Panic attacks are completely cureable. It's just a matter of taking the right steps in doing so. There's a bad stigma on anxiety and panic and depression and OCD. Don't even worry about what people might thing of you. It doesn't matter. Educated people know better and know you're just having a hard time. If you can see a therapist or councellor, you'd be surprised at how much relief you feel even after the first visit. You're not going crazy. It's just something that needs to be dealt with and you don't yet have the right tools to be able to do it yourself. Some councellors will even come to your home if it's that bad. There is so much help out there for you. They will help you deal with your guilt and post pardum depression as well as the anxiety that goes along with it. People are fantastic beings. We're all incredible in our own unique ways and when the human heart reaches out to help another it can move mountains! We're all connected so you're never going through this alone. I'm proud of you for coming here to look for help. Usually your family Dr. Can steer you in the right direction for therapy or councelling. There are sometimes even free councelling centers.

Originally posted by vivijovi1725:
hello
well i never even think i had anxiety.i remember wen i was about 15 always worring about if something happen to my parents. i will cry and worry about it.well wen i was seventeen i got pregnant.i made a big mistake i got an abortion. i was so depress i always wanted my baby i got so depress i just obsess about getting pregnant that was all i thought about well 6months later i got pregnant i was so happy that i worry constantly about something going wrong. well i had a great pregnancy. well i guess i got postpartum depression i never delt with it i would get angry sometimes and just keep it to my self.well b4 my 19bday was my first panic attack i was felling dizy prior to that wen i would go to a store and i was scare to drive.ever since i have just not gone to the way i was i always think i have a mentall illnes and i have lots of obsessive thoughts i feel like i'm scare to go crazy i'm scare to be alone this just sucks i truly think i;m in the beginingof a mentall illness and it hurts all i do is cry worry and cry again i cry for everything. i'm so scare to leave my daughter. and be in a mentall institute. wat does this sounds like .can some one plese help me understand was going on.

I UNDERSTAND, AFTER I HAD MY FIRST AND ONLY CHILD. I HAD EXTREME WORRY- WHAT IF HE CRIES, AM I GOOD ENOUGH? I COULD NOT SLEEP, EAT AND WAS VERY DEPRESSED. I WAS CONVINCED I HAD DONE SOMETHING WRONG DURING MY PREGNANCY (WHICH WAS WONDERFUL)AND KNOW HE HAS ALL KINDS OF ILLNESS. THAT WAS NOT TRUE. I HAD TO LEAVE HIM FOR A WHILE AND GET SOME HELP FOR MY DEPRESSION. THE ANXIETY AND PANIC WERE STILL THERE AND NOT ADDRESSED. I AM ADDRESSING THAT NOW. HE IS 7 NOW, MY SON. HE IS HEALTHY AND SMART AND BEAUTIFUL. DO NOT BE SO HARD ON YOURSELF. THESE ARE REAL FEELINGS. YOUR NOT CRAZY. TRY TO TALK TO YOUR GYNOCOLOGIST ABOUT POST-PARTUM DEPRESSION. THEY KNOW QUITE A BIT. TAKE TIME OUT FOR YOU. IF YOU NEED SOME ONE TO TAKE CARE OF THINGS FOR A WHILE-THAT'S OK.

GOD BLESS YOU
IT'S OK!!!

OGIE