Stress Center Peer Support

Hi every one im a 34 years old guy that lives by him self. My problem with my anxiety is that iv been searching for my true love and my family that i cant have. Yes i cant have kids at all, I been having relationship with women that have kids and its been so hard for me when they are so busy with the kids and life. I try my best to hang around and stay out of there way so i dont cause any problems but they just hate when im just hanging around instead of trying to do something with my self. Thats my big problem that im searching for a family that im scared to be apart from them. SO its been hard on me it dont last and i lose everything for my ways i am. Im dating this women that is 45 years old and have three kids, she is a teacher and she has treated me so good that i decided to do something about my ways so i can save my relationship. The problem is that i live by my self and some times i dont hear from her for a great while during the day that it drives me crazy i call her and of course she is busy taking care of the kids. So i feel loney just because im not there spending time with them and im just sitting in my butt alone. I get so mad that i would like for me and her to just move in together and that way ill just leave her alone and let her do what she wants to do.

Yes if i could just live with her i would be ok with my self i could be busy with the kids and doing things instead of bothering my girl. Dont know if im wrong on the way i am but thats what makes me feel better just been there with them. If im alone im no one and i feel like i got nothing to do. Im to scared to be me or do anything with out my family. I just wish that this program would help me see things different from life.

Sometimes it takes being on your own to see ALL that you're missing out on. I felt very dependant on my boyfriend, to the point where I had a hard time spending a single night alone. We broke up for a couple of months which was really the best thing that could have happened. It forced me spend time alone and while it was difficult at first, it got easier and not only did it get easier, but I started to enjoy it and I realized ALL of the things I was missing out on! You need to discover a life on your own and be happy before you can be happy in a relationship. I'm now back with my boyfriend and I feel SO much more independent and stronger than I did before. I would strongly suggest taking some time to yourself. As well, it seems that dating someone with kids may not be the best idea for yourself. Perhaps you should find someone who has not had any children.

You know what yea its true about finding some one that dosnt have any kids, may be it would be better for me. But the problem there is that im suffering the lost of not been able to have kids and having some one with kids it fulfill my life. Also it makes me feel more as a parent and i feel more loved then just my girlfriend.

Yes i am scared been alone may be thats why i like been close to kids cause they love you no matter what in life. I also probably for got to let you know that Yes i am ready for a marriage I would love to have a family and be some one for some one in life.