Posted: Sun Feb 10, 2008 4:28 pm
You may remember me writing a post last weekend titled "living in my bed" I basically wrote about how I was stuck in my bed, depressed, anxious, miserable.
I'd like to share with you what I did this weekend. I woke up Saturday morning and I said to myself "I am not going to spend this beautiful day in my bed" I was so weary about it, because my bed had become my safe, comfortable place. But I made my way out into the living room and did some cleaning and then I cleaned the kitchen. I watched some TV and wrote in my journal. Then I decided that I was tired of having no food and that I was going to go to the grocery store, by MYSELF. What was I thinking? I don't know, but I went. And after that I went to the pet store. And after the pet store I went to the craft store, and after the craft store I went to the gas station to fill up my car. If you know me, you know that a month ago I could hardly go to my mailbox. When I got home I spent a few hours making things with the stuff I got from the craft store and NOT in my bed, but on my couch! My boyfriend came home from work then and just about died of shock when I told him everything I had done. He could NOT believe it. He said he needed to go to the grocery store so I said 'lets go' and I went AGAIN. That is 5 different stores in 1 day. When I got home we watched movies together in the living room.
Today I decided that yesterday was just too perfect and that I was going to have another day not spent in my bed. A few days ago my parents invited my boyfriend and I over for dinner. I never accepted, because I was too nervous about going. I decided that I was going, no but's about it! So during the day I did some more cleaning and took a shower and got ready. When my boyfriend came home we headed over to their house and had a great turkey dinner. I had so much fun. When we got home I watched some tv in the livingroom.
I went an entire weekend out of my bedroom. I accomplished things that a month ago I thought I would never, ever do. I guess that I realized I had to start believing in me and that if I ever want to get better, I'm just going to have to get uncomfortable and get OUT THERE.
I want to thank my good friends for believing in me. Mimi, you are such a great support person for me. You were the first person I called Saturday after I went shopping by myself. I love you! DeeDee, thank you so much for the inspiration. You really made me realize that I had to get out there and try. And Deb, thank you for believing in me too and teaching me how to believe in me. I am so thankful for all of you.
I'd like to share with you what I did this weekend. I woke up Saturday morning and I said to myself "I am not going to spend this beautiful day in my bed" I was so weary about it, because my bed had become my safe, comfortable place. But I made my way out into the living room and did some cleaning and then I cleaned the kitchen. I watched some TV and wrote in my journal. Then I decided that I was tired of having no food and that I was going to go to the grocery store, by MYSELF. What was I thinking? I don't know, but I went. And after that I went to the pet store. And after the pet store I went to the craft store, and after the craft store I went to the gas station to fill up my car. If you know me, you know that a month ago I could hardly go to my mailbox. When I got home I spent a few hours making things with the stuff I got from the craft store and NOT in my bed, but on my couch! My boyfriend came home from work then and just about died of shock when I told him everything I had done. He could NOT believe it. He said he needed to go to the grocery store so I said 'lets go' and I went AGAIN. That is 5 different stores in 1 day. When I got home we watched movies together in the living room.
Today I decided that yesterday was just too perfect and that I was going to have another day not spent in my bed. A few days ago my parents invited my boyfriend and I over for dinner. I never accepted, because I was too nervous about going. I decided that I was going, no but's about it! So during the day I did some more cleaning and took a shower and got ready. When my boyfriend came home we headed over to their house and had a great turkey dinner. I had so much fun. When we got home I watched some tv in the livingroom.
I went an entire weekend out of my bedroom. I accomplished things that a month ago I thought I would never, ever do. I guess that I realized I had to start believing in me and that if I ever want to get better, I'm just going to have to get uncomfortable and get OUT THERE.
I want to thank my good friends for believing in me. Mimi, you are such a great support person for me. You were the first person I called Saturday after I went shopping by myself. I love you! DeeDee, thank you so much for the inspiration. You really made me realize that I had to get out there and try. And Deb, thank you for believing in me too and teaching me how to believe in me. I am so thankful for all of you.
I AM SOOOO PROUD OF YOU!!! That's what I love to hear on these boards! YOU are such an inspiration to me and to everyone else here. 