Posted: Fri Dec 19, 2008 2:48 pm
my anxiety and depression hit me really hard last year, and since then i have been by myself alot. Before that I had plans basically every weekend, i hung out with the same group of people every weekend. i stayed with them for a lot of years because i was afraid of what would happen if i left, that i would not have any friends. looking back i realize that i was miserable a lot around them, mostly because i stayed with them out of fear, although i did love them sometimes. So since about a year ago i have hardly hung out with them, or talked to them. there are a few that i still am friends with, but i feel like most of the people who i called my best friends just kind of faded out of my life at that point. Now i feel like i am making friends, and enjoy their company, but i am still anxious about making plans and so i stay home a lot on the weekends, and right now i am just feeling a little lonely even though i know my social life won't be like this forever. So yeah i just wanted to vent a little bit, sorry there wasn't really a point to this post