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Good Morning all, just felt I had to post as I am up at just about 3am after my wife took my almost 2yr old son to the hospital.

He seems to have had a cold since September (he has been healthy at some point) and he recently had tubes placed in his ears as he continued to have a lot of fluid.

My wife was concerned earlier and then when he woke up this AM he just seemed to be laboring so she made the call.

Just so you all don't think I am a bad dad sitting here on line with my son at the hospital, I am home with my 6yr old son who is sleeping.

Anyway, I could feel the panic come over me (and the What if's) as was discussed in another post I just posted.

I just feel so bad for my son, but at the same time continue to feel as if I am being selfish. Each time my son gets sick it seems as if my wife has me stay home and I have to take a day.

Right now I am more worried about him, but also anticipating the conversation when my wife gets home about who is going to stay home with him (if he cannot go to school).

I feel so bad about these thoughts...I was having those feelings as if I could have an attack (and it has been quite a bit of time since my last one) and I just felt I needed to vent.

Thanks for listening!!

I don't see anything wrong with being up and on the computer while you're waiting to hear back from your wife. I'd be too restless too sleep.
My ex and took turns staying home with ursonwhen he was sick though my ex had sick time and I didn't. Alternating keeps one from missing too much work.
Hope he feels better soon.