that stupid feeling of unreality...

KDlady · Post by **KDlady** » Mon Sep 22, 2008 9:08 am

It's so stinkin' annoying!

I know I must still sense danger with it. Those who have gotten through that: was it simply repetition of self-talk and underreacting to it?
I've been saying, "It's just annoying, not dangerous, the less attention I give it, the less it'll bother me, remember the paradox of the mind, it's just anxiety, I may feel funny but don't necessarily look it (or maybe I do

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Repetition, repetition, repetiton??

Faith_TX · Post by **Faith_TX** » Mon Sep 22, 2008 9:34 am

I am not sure exactly what feeling you are speaking of. Can you elaborate? Is this general spaciness and not being in the present moment?

It sounds like you are addressing the issue proactively.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Sep 22, 2008 12:45 pm

It is a spaciness feeling where I feel weird. I'll ask myself dumb questions like, "do I feel right?", I feel funny, etc. Just a floaty feeling that irritates me. It tends to lead to thoughts about LIFE, like how strange it is, how big it is and who I am in it all, etc. I know perfectly well that the reason it sticks around is because I give it attention. I'm hyper-vigilant to how I'm feeling way more than I want.
It's very difficult to just let it be and not get bothered or angry. So, just curious and wanting assurance that it's all about repetition to overcome this just like everything else anxiety related...
it sure takes longer than we'd all like, doesn't it??

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Sep 22, 2008 1:08 pm

ok youre thinking about things that you cant figure out what i do is put up a big red stopsign tell your self theese thoughts are in valid stop giving them power ok so try this it might take a while but it will work . i have stupid thoughts about the air it bothers me but its just a symptom of anxiety. good luck....wayne

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Sep 22, 2008 1:18 pm

Hey KDlady,

If it makes you feel any better, I have those weird thoughts, too. They are existential-like thoughts in which I question things like the nature of reality, why I think what I think, etc. They are very circular and scary, but I'm using lesson 2 to help me practice not being afraid of my fear and lesson 12 to realize that these thoughts are simply an avoidance behavior. It also helps me to know that I'm not alone and my scary thoughts are not unique to me. Others have completely overcome their scary thoughts and feelings of "unreality", and so will you and I! Hang in there!

Scott

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Sep 24, 2008 3:09 am

Thanks for the replies thus far.
Our little brains can be so deceiving and it's so challenging to not listen to them when we're tempted to believe the lies. The Enemy is strong, but God's stronger.
Thanks!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Sep 24, 2008 3:42 am

Our little brains can be so deceiving and it's so challenging to not listen to them when we're tempted to believe the lies. The Enemy is strong, but God's stronger.

Hi KDlady,
I personally believe the enemy is us and we must controlour own thoughts and choose positive thoughts and soothing, compassionate thoughts. If your thoughts aren't comforting then put a stop to it by saying something like you aren't an honest, happy thought so I am not running from you but am dismissing you for one that makes me feel joy, peace, anf happy about. Try it, it works for me. Yes I know that I'm not you but we do share so many bad traits & what do you have to lose??...except the bad annoying thoughts.

God Bless and Be Positive and Kind to yourself every day.

Deborah

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Sep 24, 2008 7:40 am

It's the repetition and seemingly non-stop replacing or accepting that's getting to me right now. It's on automatic and feeds me the same dumb thoughts that feel defeating.
I KNOW I'll get through it and it's JUST obsessive thinking and nothing more.
The ongoing application is tough!!!!

Thanks.

Carolyn Dickman · Post by **Carolyn Dickman** » Wed Sep 24, 2008 3:37 pm

Hey KDlady,

I know exactly what you mean! It seems as though I am constantly repeating the six steps. As soon as I finish telling myself that I will float with the bad feelings and provide myself some comforting self talk, the same scary thought jumps into my focus again! I never thought it possible to feel this STUCK!

Last night, I was completely exhausted and just couldn't take it anymore. The constant thoughts were preventing me from falling asleep. So I called my primary care physician, and he called in a prescription to a 24 hour pharmacy for Lorazepam. I'm only taking a very small dosage (0.25 to 0.50 mg 3 times per day), but the difference in my mood is already tremendous! I feel like I have clarity of mind, and I can truly see just how ridiculous my scary thoughts are.

I don't want to be on medication for the long term, but if it helps me to focus better on the program (and life in general), then I think it's worth it.

Whether or not you decide to use medication, I KNOW your scary thoughts will begin to dissipate. Think of all the PRACTICE you're getting! Hang in there. We're all rooting for you!

Scott