Dear Diary

[Paisleegreen]

That's good to hear, J. P

[tina martin]

This is such good news. Sorry about my gloom. It came from the experiences with the cats.

Hoping for the best tomorrow, Love.........T

[SoWhatif]

J, The job sounds as there is always surprisingly different tasks. Your a good crisis manager. Sorry to hear your companion is ageing so rapidly. I am with T as keeping boundaries with pets. The medical aspect with them anymore is astounding and so are the costs. To me it is about quality of life, not so much on academic theory of what may be. It is rough when we are struggling and receive more pain. Hold the love given coco for a better, stronger and enduring love of yourself. A hug for ya.My internet is limited so I be watching instead of typing so much.

[SoWhatif]

T, Sure hope your rough days are better. Is it possible to set up a internet connection with your brother? Most any newer puters have live video and talk. I saw a Fit the other day and was thinking of you. I believe the little car would "fit" in the bed of my truck. I can see where size of other vehicles could be intimidating. Reminds me of riding a cycle. Did you get the Robbins raised and out in the world? The toad polliwogs took over my water garden pond, wish they would grow faster and then move on. Later

[Paisleegreen]

R, I never could get poliwogs to stick around. Only when I had my first pond which was more simple and I guess easier for them to get in and out. I use to hear them croaking at night. Now I get garter snakes visiting and eating my baby goldfish.

I agree too about not spending too much money on fixing our pets. My poor friend had their dog go through some major hip surgery just to find out that after much rehabilitation the dog had cancer. I know it was very hard on them. He was such a good and fun dog and is truly missed as they moved to south Cal not too long after that and live close by the beach where they can ride their bikes and their dog if healthy would have been fun to run along with them while they rode. He lived a long life with them. He was a dog pound rescue and one cute thing he use to do was jump in juniper ground cover to make the lizards come out so he should chase them.

[tina martin]

It's so good to hear from you, R. Hope all is well with you. Brother has internet where he is, but will not (cannot ?) use it. There really is very little "connect" by now even on the phone. His side: only silence. I try to keep my end as simple as possible. Get off, sit there and cry. He did not fight. Why, I constantly ask myself.

Fit is a cutie, always wants to make friends with every Fit. They ignore us. There seem to be more on the road now. Much as I gently discouraged the nest, it's there, on the far side of the infamous column and she is sitting in it. Babies seem overdue. Am getting a ladder to look into the nest. Maybe there is nothing there? Just a vacation home for her? Not good for the blood pressure.

Hope all turns out well with J's Coco. I actually remember when she put up pictures. Pets can be heart breaking. Thanks for your interest. Happy Thursday to you.

[Paisleegreen]

Tina, is the robin named Fit? Sorry to hear about your brother and how you are losing connection with him. My one sister that is having memory problems will be visiting soon with her hubby and handicapped DD. My other sister with all kinds of problems now only has a phone that she can dial for emergency. We can call her but her hearing is so bad she doesn't always hear the phone nor has a message service. This is all because she is unable to make wise choices to pay her bills on time. Thus her losing her trailer lot space, and so forth, a forever cycle of move in to new place, collect things, then fear of eviction, disorganization , then panic and anxiety, then she is asked to leave, puts things in a storage unit, then she can't pay the storage unit, then loses her stuff. A vicious cycle....

So my heart goes out to you as you worry about your brother that you don't even get to hear his voice much or as you said, didn't really talk period. Paislee I getting ready to take off for DH's family reunion, so if you don't hear from me that is where I'm at. DD has a laptop, but I'm sure she will be using it.

[tina martin]

Fit is my little vehicle, fit like me. Sure sorry about your heartaches with your siblings. There is always much history isn't there? My big problem was to move far away. Now we are both old and, really, life is over. I try to practice acceptance and just do the best I can. Some days are better than others.

Will miss you. Hope you enjoy your time away and all goes well.

[Paisleegreen]

Hi Tina, Ah, Fit is the name of your car. Now I'll have to reread your posting with that in mind. Well, I'm about ready to head out, I picked up my SisinLaw at the airport, her plane was delayed a wee bit, then we visited a little after we got my house, DH and DS have already left a day early to do some work for our business. So it was quite peaceful at my house. I worked in my garden trying to dig up some plants to move them to a different spot. It was quite challenging and I was getting frustrated.

Then I was frustrated seeing all the thistle weeds that have been growing in my Memory garden. Just when I think I have a handle on it, the rains come and then sunshine and Voila' they are 3 ft high! So I called a neighbor to come over and help. But since I was so tired from over doing it that morning and the day before. My patience was thin. I was okay, but I could tell that I've bitten off too much than I could chew!

I can't focus on packing, transplanting a plant, watering, and directing a boy all at the same time especially when my neck was aching. So I had to use my "skills" or positive self talk and give myself a reality check that I don't have to do all of this today! Ugh...

So I sent the boy home and relaxed for a while before I cleaned up to go to the store and then the airport all the while doing some laundry and packing up. Allowing 3 sprinklers to water areas of yard that might need it while I'm gone. DS 20 hasn't checked out our irrigation system yet for this year to see if it going to operate, so I have to drag hoses around.

Anyway, I'm a bit anxious with my trip as some of my own kids and Grandchildren won't be there and I'll be seeing many relatives I haven't seen for maybe 30 years. Then to add to that, my brother in law has an accident last night so that means that he and his wife won't be at the reunion either. He also does what we do and was doing a job and fell off the roof. It is a miracle he didn't crack his skull open or be in a worse condition. So my DD filled me in on that this morning and told me that she wouldn't be able to do the driving.

Which all the time I thought I wouldn't be driving so as I overworked myself I figured I could sleep in the car. But I feel I can do it or let my sis in law drive. Driving doesn't bother me, only if I'm tired.

So we are glad to hear that my bro in law is okay but it just confirms the reality of the fear of this happening to my sons and DH when they work. My BIL just was not thinking completely and sort of stepped off the roof. He is lucky he didn't land on anything that could impale him, just cement! The ER sent him home with pain killers, but he is pretty banged up.

Well, I better get dressed and moving, I'm posting since this helps me to wake up, I haven't work up my sisinlaw who is at my house to let her know her brother fell off a roof last night. I'll let her sleep while I get packed up.

Have a good weekend everyone! Paislee

[tina martin]

Paislee, dear, you try to do too much. Tell yourself, "One thing is good enough." All will be well. Relax and enjoy yourself. It's the best for your health.

Almost had a "conversation" with brother just now. So I feel very thankful.