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Viejo70 · Post by **Viejo70** » Fri May 21, 2010 3:52 am

This is my first time in your chat room and I'm not sure how or if it will help. I am most likely no diferent then most people in the rejection arena; however, I can't seem to find a way out. I am 72 years old and have been rejected as far back as I can remember, and am still working full time and still dealing with rejection every day. I just got the program yesterday and listened to it for quit some time because I was in the middle of extreem anxiety over events at work. I am a full time College Teacher and hate the politics that seem to go along with the job. I'mn not sure if I am a true intervert or just an extreem anxiety person. I don't do well with people, meetings, or being pushed around and disrespected. In my younger years I had a hair trigger, but in my older years I have been able to control my self from going off on those who in my eyes had a butt kicking coming. (not literaly) I love teaching, and the students are great; however, I could do without the administration. I have been on my present job for the past 19 years and have been suffering from extreem anxiety and depression to the point of going to the emergency room three times thinking I was having a heart atack. Both of my department chairs have turned me into the Dean as "hard to get along with" without even talking with me or telling me what their problem with me is. So I feel that the meeting the Dean has called for ue to meet is a gang up on me meeting since the meeting consist of three administers and me. I have never had a bad evaluation from the students (one each semester) or administration (one every four years). I am hoping this will be the beginning of the end for me and anxiety.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 21, 2010 3:56 am

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Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 21, 2010 4:27 am

I know rejection is hard to deal with. Hang in there we all understand. I think it is great that you have started the program and taken this first step to recovery. Recovery is a process which you will hear a lot in the program. Remember you may fail sometimes but keep on trying inspite of the rejection and your own frustrations.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue May 25, 2010 1:08 pm

I find it always helps to be able to connect with people who are going through some of the same things you are. Even if its just hanging around the boards and reading how they are dealing with their problems. I do encourage you to hang in there with the program though. I just started myself and am only up to session 4 but even so it has made a difference for me. I am hopeful that things will get better as time goes along and I hope they will for you as well.