Since I am now feeling better about my anxiety, I wanted to challenge myself a little - so I suggested to my family that we go see the new Star Trek movie. Hubby is a Star Trek fan and has the complete old series, and he was pretty tired, so it took a little persuading to get him to go... but he was fine once we got out the door. I was tired, too, but figured it might work to my advantage - I felt too tired to bother getting anxious!
I was happy to see that there were very few people there, and we got great seats right on the wide passageway in the middle. They got lovely chairs where you can tip back and relax. The movie is very loud and visually powerful right from the start, and the sound systems they have in theatres now are so strong! I could feel that I got a little tense with all the rumbling and screaming, but told myself that it was excitement, not anxiety, and to enjoy it as if it was a virtual rollercoaster ride (which I don't go on, of course!).
A couple of times towards the end I got tired and closed my eyes - just so much happening on the screen - but I never got too edgy or felt the need to leave. I made myself comfortable by kicking one shoe off and put my foot up underneath the other leg and held hubby's hand for part of the movie.
To me, the triumph of going where this woman hasn't gone before in a long, long time, overshadowed the actual movie... I really don't care if Spock was believable or if Kirk was too rebellious.
I used to love going to the movies, so hopefully this will be a treat I can enjoy more often again!