Posted: Tue Jun 02, 2009 5:02 pm
Just want to share how great I feel lately. I'm on week 14 and I know once I finish the program I will focus on sessions 3, 7, 9, 11 and 13 much more. But I can't believe at the difference! I don't think negatively like I used to. I don't believe the negative thoughts anymore. And I'm open to options now. All sorts of options. I realize now how many doors I kept closing.
I had a difficult time even reading books I disagreed with or one that were poorly written. I teach writing and literature at college level, so that made me picky. But my anxiety made me fearful of opening myself to something that might be a bad experience. Now I know I'm not responsible for what someone else wrote. They get judged by it and I'm free to think of it what I want, but I can always get something good out of something that is flawed or something I disagree with.
I still have a long way to go, but I feel so much safer now. So much happier and aware of all the good things in life. The ups and downs are still there and I certainly have the down moments, but the worst seems to be fading.
I had a difficult time even reading books I disagreed with or one that were poorly written. I teach writing and literature at college level, so that made me picky. But my anxiety made me fearful of opening myself to something that might be a bad experience. Now I know I'm not responsible for what someone else wrote. They get judged by it and I'm free to think of it what I want, but I can always get something good out of something that is flawed or something I disagree with.
I still have a long way to go, but I feel so much safer now. So much happier and aware of all the good things in life. The ups and downs are still there and I certainly have the down moments, but the worst seems to be fading.