I made it!!
Posted: Thu Dec 15, 2011 8:34 am
So I have "issues" with going out and doing things on my own. I also have "issues" with making purchases for myself (not nessesities, but anything else) and I am VERY indesisive.
So I had planned to get dinner and do a little "me" shopping after work. Before getting off I was already thinking of reasons that I should just go home, and do it another day. Even leaving work I drive by my house to get to the store, thought again I should just go home. But I didn't I went to eat, although I only went to drive-thur and ate in my car, that's more than I've done before. (I didn't have it in me to go in and eat)
Even thought about going home after dinner, but decided I should just go on with it. The kids are fine, there is NO reason for me to go home. So to the store I went and I actually slightly enjoyed it. I went with the intent of getting a few things for myself. I wanted some yoga accessories, I decided I at least needed a block. Now normally when I set to the store to get things for myself, I will got and put a few things in my cart, but by the time I leave I've managed to talk myself out of buying anything in my cart that was not needed or things for kids...
I bought not only a block but a beginners kit, came with matt, strap, block and video!!! I also got myself a planner (hoping I will be able to start "getting out") and one of those daily positive thought type books. I didn't put anything back that I put in my cart. Don't think I didn't want to, but I used my skills and told myself I am worth it, I deserve it etc. and I was able to do it!!
So I had planned to get dinner and do a little "me" shopping after work. Before getting off I was already thinking of reasons that I should just go home, and do it another day. Even leaving work I drive by my house to get to the store, thought again I should just go home. But I didn't I went to eat, although I only went to drive-thur and ate in my car, that's more than I've done before. (I didn't have it in me to go in and eat)
Even thought about going home after dinner, but decided I should just go on with it. The kids are fine, there is NO reason for me to go home. So to the store I went and I actually slightly enjoyed it. I went with the intent of getting a few things for myself. I wanted some yoga accessories, I decided I at least needed a block. Now normally when I set to the store to get things for myself, I will got and put a few things in my cart, but by the time I leave I've managed to talk myself out of buying anything in my cart that was not needed or things for kids...
I bought not only a block but a beginners kit, came with matt, strap, block and video!!! I also got myself a planner (hoping I will be able to start "getting out") and one of those daily positive thought type books. I didn't put anything back that I put in my cart. Don't think I didn't want to, but I used my skills and told myself I am worth it, I deserve it etc. and I was able to do it!!