Posted: Sat Jun 05, 2010 4:39 pm
So i've been dreading this birthday party for weeks, i've been trying not to think about it but I can't help it. Well today was the day. Last night I didn't want to go to sleep because I didn't want today to come. Well we got up got dressed, I let my husband go ahead and take my son, the birthday party was a my in laws house about 15 mins away. Well I waited about an hour before I left I did my relaxation cd. And was trying to calm myself down. Well I went out there, and it's way out in the country, I drove up and down their road, stopped and vomited. I stopped and was telling myself not to run. I pulled up in their driveway and couldn't get out of the car. Finally I drove back home. About another hour later I went back. And when I pulled up in the driveway I just started walking and told myself, just keep going your almost there. I made it! And I was anxious when I got there, my heart was pounding, palms were sweating, but I started talking to myself to calm myself. Started my breathing exercises and it went away. I ended up staying about 2 hours! I feel like I can do anything right now!