life is good - and it's a long post!

Paisleegreen · Post by **Paisleegreen** » Wed Dec 29, 2010 11:24 am

Hi Mano and Karma and others!

No plans for me going out, I'm going to enjoy being inside. I'm out west and we've had temps in the upper 40's but it is taking a drastic turn for the worst. I'm ready to bundle up. No plans for Friday, as I've been out every Friday except Christmas Eve due to volunteer work. So it is nice to be home for the weekend.

Karma--Good for you getting the rooms cleared out. That is my goal now, is to start getting rid of things I really don't need. Not really looking forward to it, but somebody's got to do it and I rather it be me!

I don't trust other family members.

Paislee

Pauly J · Post by **Pauly J** » Wed Dec 29, 2010 3:53 pm

That is so awesome! Its always great to hear stories of success! May 2011 be your greatest year ever!

"What the Mind can Conceive, and Believe, It can Achieve!"

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Fri Dec 31, 2010 5:03 am

happy new years eve to all of us!!!!

my wish is for each and every one of us to have inner peace, serenity, calmness and HAPPINESS for the new year!!!

may all your hopes and dreams come true in the coming year.

let's make this the best time of our life with success after success.

let's all remember to find joy and happiness in the ordinary.

in the words of nike - let's "just do it!!!!" LOL

karma

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Sun Jan 02, 2011 4:55 am

Happy New Year !

New Years Eve day was kind of a bad one. Dad's on full time oxygen and that day he did too much in the morning and he couldn't catch his breath. At the same time, I took mom to get some groceries. We weren't gone long, but being home alone, it kind of freaked dad out and he had a panic attack along with the lack of oxygen. We got back home and saw dad leaning against the kitchen wall. MY panic level went thru the roof ! Mom (the trooper LOL) kept her cool and calmed dad down. I feel bad now, but I had to get some air. I left and told mom if she needed anything to call me. I came home and had a full blown panic attack. It lasted about a half hour. After that, I got really tired. I fell asleep in the recliner in front of the TV and I woke up about an hour later. Meanwhile, mom got dad calmed down and gave him some apple juice and in about an hour or so, he was back to his old self. He's been fine ever since. I didn't end up going out for New Year's Eve. I just wanted to stay home and relax. I had knots in the pit of my stomach anyway.

I went to their house for breakfast this morning and dad is laughing and talking and eating a good breakfast. I'm feeling better today ! It was nice too that I got a call New Years Day and was told that I was missed at the party but everyone fully understood.

Tomorrow is back to the old grind for me ! Actually, it's nice to get some "normal" back in my life again ! LOL There's something to be said for rituals I guess LOL

As I'm sitting here, I think that maybe there are many lessons to learn from all of this. Start living is one of them.

forever young 06 · Post by **forever young 06** » Sun Jan 02, 2011 8:22 am

manomusic,
sorry to hear of your fright. that would be scarey.I stayed home New years eve too. I have been going alot helping my daughter get a lot of things done tend to let my stuff go.I just need a break to stay home and rest.

karma way to go on cleaning out things I am trying to get some done. I am so piled up in closet and drawers clutter ever where. I have read the same thing it causes stress no wonder I feel like screaming. I have papers all over my desk. Christmas cards laying around I walk into a room and I feel over whelmed so I turn and walk out. I have got to start some where.I wondered If I could just start in one small area break it down into small task and then reward myself.

enought venting may all our wishes come true this year

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Sun Jan 02, 2011 3:10 pm

hey mano!!!! yep your mom is a trooper - and good for her! you do know how you reacted is normal - right? you knew your dad was in good hands - and he was/is.

so your dad has panic attacks too? i find that interesting. i'm convinced depression/panic/whatever is genetic/hereditary. i have it from both side of my family and in me it achieved perfection. i'm the best at panic - something that should be lauded and praised - don't you think? LOL at myself

i took my tree down tonight. the living room seems a bit lonely right now. i wanted to get it done before tuesday - that's when i go back to work.

i've had a head cold since early tuesday morning. it's hanging on me like a cheap suit LOL oh well - this too shall pass. i was only able to see my sister for one night - the first night she was in town. i think i've rambled on about that in an earlier post? hmmmmm

a friend is letting me help her change her living room. i'm having more fun than anyone! for some reason i have a knack of making rooms more warm and inviting. i told her the goal is NOT to spend very much money but to take what we already have and reconfigure - things like that. we did go out and buy a 5 x 7 rug today to "define" the new living space. it looks great and was inexpensive. i told her i'm there tomorrow to finish the room - IF she doesn't bar the door. LOL

i stayed home too for new year's eve. mama, my friend and i had a nice time doing bits of this and that. since fireworks are illegal here they were going off all over the place LOL some people had really invested big money in their fireworks. it looked like july 4th at midnight!!!!! we toasted with welch's sparkling grape juice since mama and i don't drink. it was a good evening!!!

i'm going to vaccuum the living room now and start winding down for the evening.

mano - i hope your tomorrow rocks!!!! forever - i've got so much clutter around here. oh well, it will still be here tomorrow!!! LOL

karma

Paisleegreen · Post by **Paisleegreen** » Mon Jan 03, 2011 10:58 am

Hey, Mano--Sorry about your Dad...I'm glad he is okay now and you too! That is scary to see your father be in that condition. I'm glad you were able to rest. I wasn't up to par either this past weekend, I think I got what my DD had before Christmas Day when I had to buck up and have the family at my house for gift exchange and Christmas Dinner, but it was good.

Just a few family members ended up with her cold or flu bug. So my last weekend was staying in bed and on Ibuprofen. Ugh..
I only have enough energy to read a little bit and go back to bed. But the miracle is that I took Ibuprofen, I've been afraid to take anything that would increase stomach upset and give me the "jitters" or "symptoms of anxiousness", so it is nice to feel that sort of normal again.

Karma--Glad to hear you are helping a friend out! Good for you! I just heard fireworks...and watched Times Square and the rest of the weekend was watching Football! I could barely last for the last game with the Seahawks and ? my mind is Blank! It'll come to me... :p

Forever Young--I'm with you, I really need to go through things and let go of them. I've kept main living areas cleared up, but my bedroom just needs a thorough going through and me just letting go of stuff. Take Care...

Paislee

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Tue Jan 04, 2011 2:32 pm

Thanks everyone for the positive words ! I suppose that I know the reaction was normal, but it stayed with me for so long. I got to work this morning and the place spun for about an hour. No matter how much I breathed, it spun. Finally, it stopped and I got on with my day. Dad's doing MUCH better today. That made me feel better.

Back to the ol' grind tomorrow ! LOL Hopefully I sleep well tonght.

How's everyone doing today ?

lockdo · Post by **lockdo** » Tue Jan 04, 2011 6:30 pm

Glad your father is doing better!!!

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Sun Jan 09, 2011 4:05 am

Thanks Lockdo !

Hello everyone !

This week I learned something about my dad. I found out that even though he has emphezema (sp?), he also has trouble breathing without the oxygen because of a pain that he has in his spine. In March, he's going to see a specialist about managing the pain so that he'll be able to breathe easier. I've never had back pain, so I don't know what that's like.

Still, I have this stupid cloud of impending doom over my head. I'm doing my best to keep it away, but sometimes it catches up with me. I went over to my folk's house a few days ago and saw him sitting there with his head slumped down. A wave of panic came over me. I've since learned that when his head is down, it somehow eases some of the pain in his back. I thought it had to do with his breathing, but it's the pain. He doesn't tell anyone what's going on, so I have to force the info out of him. It's frustrating. Needless to say, I was tense all day long that day. His heart is in really good condition (according to the Dr.) so he may very well live 5-10-or more years yet. I need to do something to make sure that I'm heathy enough to help mom and dad out as the years roll on. If my thoughts stay the way that are now, I won't be much good to anyone !

Today, I have to do a bit of running around for me and mom and dad and then I can come back home and just rest. .......some MUCH needed rest.

Hope all is going well for everyone today !