Hi Bob, I'm back. Sometimes these postings get lost amongst the others!
Well, we didn't qualify for the refi at this time. I'm glad because the stress of preparing for it would be too much for me right now. I barely have any conversations w/DH (husband) and with 2 of my single adult children, it is strained.
Everyone is sensitive...and I'm more sensitive to what they say and do right now that I have to keep my spirits up to keep going.
One success came about on Monday, I got the bathroom guy to come over and make a bid. That meant he had to come into my masterbedroom which I'm don't feel is company ready.
So he gave us a good bid, but DH wants to check what the inferior product would cost. So it is a competition company that will not give us the same service.
This won't happen this month, but if it does the guy can get the shower/walk-in tub put in in two days. It is part a jetted tub and shower, so it is specialized and is something that will be great to have now and as DH and I age.
So I again feel like I'm not be listened to.
In a way I was because he did finally look at them but it wasn't the main manufacturer that came out with the product. So there would be a $4,000-difference, but I want the superior one.
We don't have any luxuries such as a hot tub or swimming pool, don't go on vacations unless it is business related, so that hasn't happened for over 10 years. I've gone on my own vacations by myself or take my kids.
Anyway, at least I have accomplished the goal that my Psychologist wanted DH and I to do.
So that is a lot of progress for me to allow someone to come into my bedroom.
I did get Lucinda's book From Panic to Power, and now I can fill in the gaps that the CDs don't have on them and I'm missing Session 7 and another one. Can't recall which one that is just now.
Anyway, after the episode w/the shower guy coming in, my stress was increase and felt all the jittery feelings that day and noticed it during the night. But feeling better as I rested and ate some tuna sandwiches.
I listen to all the CDs as I go about my day and feel the need. How are you doing?