Posted: Sat Sep 20, 2008 2:50 am
Hi everyone....I started this program about 7 weeks ago and at that time was just coming through a very agoraphobic time. I literally was very uncomfortable leaving my bedroom. This lasted for a two week period of time and then extended into being afraid to go to the grocery store, driving, getting into elevators, flying, etc. I am posting this forum to let everyone know that needs a little hope to push on. There is so much hope for each of us. A week ago I was about to battle all my fears due to the fact that I had to go away on travel for a new jobs training program. I honestly was not sure how I was going to do this. I could not imagine getting on a plane, much less leave my family, be in an intense training environment, etc. Up until the day I was to leave last Sunday morning I gave myself the permission to not go but, knew that this was a critical part in my progress. So,,,,I took each day by itself and focused on that leading up to the trip. I worked hard on not focusing beyond that. I knew that if I broke it up into pieces it would be easier to handle and it was. Last night, I returned from a six day trip. I had to fly on four separate airplanes due to non-direct flights, I had to use elevators no less than six times a day, and the training was very intense with testing etc.....As the last plane landed last night for my trip tears were streaming down my face because I knew I had pushed passed the fear and did it anyway. I write this to let you know....seven weeks ago I was in a place that I did not think I would ever see the light,,,my family was extremely worried and if you would have said I would accomplish what I have done I would not have beleived you.....The things that have helped me the most are.....Feeling the fear and doing it anyway (no matter how hard it is) and trust me sometimes I was crying so hard....Reading every book you can get your fingers on regarding positive thinking ( Dr. Vincent Peale, The Power of Positive Thinking) is wonderful, following the program and really working it, and being gentle and positive with yourself even with the littlest accomplishment. I also joined the coaching program which has been wonderful. I has helped me push through the resistance and be held accountable. I know each day is different and all I need to focus on is today.....And the two steps forward and two steps back will certainly apply but, if I can encourage one person today....to stick with it and do the program....YOU CAN FEEL BETTER....I am a testimony of that!!! I wish you all a great day,,,I hope this helps someone out there that may be struggling today. Be hopeful,,,,,!!
it is inspirational indeed.