Posted: Tue Oct 21, 2008 3:25 pm
For those of you who do not know...I was molested at a very yonge age and i spent most of my life trying to work through this. I went to the cops, I did the program, I confronted the person who did it to me and still things were there.
It started off being the only thing i thought about...I dwelled on because nothing was done about it. I did what i could and still there was a big part of me still holding onto the emotions involved...hatred towards the person who did it, the hatred towards the ones who didn't do anything to stop it and the sadness too, the fact that it happened. After I confronted the person it wasn't as much. It was still there and it only came up when i wasn't listening to music or in class.
Well, I did a cleanse and it is like all the emotions attached to the past have be drained away along with the toxins in my body. It is like what happened to me was from a past life and i can finally start to live life. I actually "care" about people now...before it was too draining to care about other people and I was to inwardly focused because of my pain that it was too difficult. I'm actually starting to feel like a human again...instead of a one celled organism that just does the exact same routine day after day after day.
I'm sure that not all of the emotions involved have vanished but the surface ones are gone. I feel that deeper ones will come to surface but I welcome them because after that...my life will get even better.
Mike
It started off being the only thing i thought about...I dwelled on because nothing was done about it. I did what i could and still there was a big part of me still holding onto the emotions involved...hatred towards the person who did it, the hatred towards the ones who didn't do anything to stop it and the sadness too, the fact that it happened. After I confronted the person it wasn't as much. It was still there and it only came up when i wasn't listening to music or in class.
Well, I did a cleanse and it is like all the emotions attached to the past have be drained away along with the toxins in my body. It is like what happened to me was from a past life and i can finally start to live life. I actually "care" about people now...before it was too draining to care about other people and I was to inwardly focused because of my pain that it was too difficult. I'm actually starting to feel like a human again...instead of a one celled organism that just does the exact same routine day after day after day.
I'm sure that not all of the emotions involved have vanished but the surface ones are gone. I feel that deeper ones will come to surface but I welcome them because after that...my life will get even better.
Mike